Everything Can Change in an Instant
I went on a one month trip to Mexico for the first time. I am 16 and went with an aunt and a cousin. My parents are very religious and I couldn't believe they were letting me go. Well it's the last time they let me go anywhere. I got drunk almost everyday, made out with three guys, smoked, and gave lap dances to older men. I even made out with my aunts husband. He had taken me out to a bar and I cant remember how it all started. Two hours passed and I all I remember is him fingering me and grabbing me all over. I sucked his small ass d*** while he was texting his wife. Did I mention he just had a son? I loved my time in Mexico and I think I'm in love with this one guy. But I am having mixed feelings on men in general because of what happened with my uncle. I hate his guts. I tried to tell my parents and they don't believe me. Maybe that's because my dad doesn't want to ruin his business in Mexico with him. I don't see how I can move on from this when my own parents don't believe me. Yes I love parties, I love to drink, and have a smoke; and I won't apologize for it. Because while all you care about is the fact that you got embarrassed by me in front of your family; I needed you. I tried to open the door and get out. But what then? Who was I going to call? F*** I can't even speak Spanish fluently. My drinking is a way to forget about all of it. Forget that you don;'t believe me, forget that it happened in the first place, forget that I brought this upon myself. And that's where I'm at. Is it my fault I was molested?