I'm in love with my best friend.
This will be long so I apologize in advance
I met this guy at a new job that I got at a restaurant , at first I wasn't really interested in him , I thought he was cute and all but we didn't talk much because I was working morning shifts and he worked night shifts .. so we never really got to know each other that much
A month or so passed and we became close ,He was having a hard time and he told me how much he needs a hug and someone to talk to .. I didn't have a car and one day I had to work at night with him so I asked him if he could give me a ride home and he said yes , he parked the car and we started talking and I gave him a hug then we looked at each other like we're about to kiss .. we did !! it was nice not gonna lie maybe it was wrong but it happened .. we got closer as the time passed and I started working night shifts to spend more time with him .. a few months later we both quit the job
we hung out a few times after and we sort of became "friends with benefits" and that's when things got emotionally hard for me .. I caught feelings ..I told him and he said that A relationship is the last thing he wants right now .
10 months passed and were best friends now , we tell each other everything I know everything about him !! I still have feelings for him and I always tell him how much I love him .. but every time he talks about a girl I'm a mess I get emotional and start crying I really don't want him to get evolved with another girl !! I know it's none of my business but I just can't help but say something about it !! I'm devastated heartbroken and depressed.. I don't know what to do anymore