Married 5 years. Not super happy but not unhappy. Rather healthy relationship with a 2.5 year old. Crappy s** life. I met up with my old boyfriend seriously thinking we were going to just be friends, go to dinner and chat. We dated when I was 19. It was both of ours best relationships and the Sparks are definitely still there. We never really broke up. I just started dating someone else because I didn't see him much living in college with no car and he used his parents car and lived 1.5 hours away from my school. The s** was always amazing and I feel things with him that I've never ever felt with my husband. After all this time, I assume it isn't just butterflies. We kissed a lot and We are still madly in love! We had a great relationship. I'm struggling with if I should get divorced and we could try to date and see where it goes. I know that I don't want to leave one man for another but I also know I am not totally as happy as I could be in my current relationship. I don't think my husband will ever change. And if he does I don't think we can Create sparks like I'm feeling for old flame. I'm worried the affects of getting divorced in my child. I want to give myself the chance to truly be happy and in real true love and not live this fake marriage just for her.