Why My Thanksgiving Was Terrible

So on Thanksgiving we arrived to my grandparents house. For once I wasn't feeling too depressed (I have depression and go to therapy). My sister that is currently forming came by and I'm really close with her. So we were alone in my grandparents bedroom hanging up our coats and she asked me how I was doing. I told her the truth and said: “Well lately my depression has really been getting to me but I feel pretty good today.”

She replies......
“Pfft what do you know about depression? Dumbass....do you even know what it's like to be depressed? It's terrible. Don't pretend and think that your so special.” ....and then she just flicked my forehead and walked away. I spent about 30 minutes in the bathroom crying. Since then my depression has.....made a turn for the worst. I'm considering self harm (I already starve myself but I was thinking more among the lines of cutting) and every night I don't get sleep. I just have meltdowns and I itch to cut, but I own zero razor blades and my parents sleep as light as a feather. They hear everything. I'm sorry it's just really on my mind and I felt the need to get it out. I'm annoying aren't I?

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  • Your sister is a narcissistic witch who will pay for her unkind words one way or another someday.

    Learn from the experience though. When people ask how you're doing, they don't actually mean it. They usually expect, "Fine, thanks. You?"

    Don't tell anyone your business. People love seeing others suffer. Plus it gives them something to talk about. Don't give anyone that pleasure.

  • It's like a switch. Happy then something happens. Crash down down down. You don't want to go down but you do. Takes day to get back to normal.

  • You're not annoying. I'm sorry you are going through this. you have a purpose in this world. Maybe it is as simple as loving someone. Or a job that will help others, please try drawing and listening to music when you get the urges, and please eat. I'm praying for you

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