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Does anyone feel the same ?
I admit it sometimes I ** and thinking little boys but I get ** with adults.
I see children only emotionally .
I think I could fall in love with an innocent and handsome little boy but not sexually , the same with an adult .
These feelings for children came to me suddenly at my 22 years old .
Now I am 23 and I think these feelings came cause I want so much to be a child again .
I like to watch movies and series with children , I like to listen opera from little boys in church and in general I like to listen them singing , l like to hear their high sweet voice , I like to hear stories about children and I like stories that shows the power of children , I like their innocence on ** .
I like everything that is childish , fairytales , childish movies , candy , cartoons , playground , trabolin and other stuff that are childish .
I would like my body was like when I was little girl , without chest , without hair on my body , more white skin with more cuteness on my face and more happiness in my soul .
Then I was for more comfortable than now in everything .
I am getting sad when I think that everyone including myself is growing up.
I would like it if we were all children forever , I am depressed because I want to be a kid again .
When i was 18 years old i was talking on facebook with a 12 year old boy and we were talking so nice about everything .
We saw only once each other in person when i was 20 and him 14 .
His mother was there with us too .
I start to feel emotionally connected with him .
It was so cute until when he became 15 and me 21 his mother didnt want her son talk to me anymore and now he doesnt like me and block me in every account i tried to connect with him .
He said that he felt empty without me and that i was his best friend and now i suddenly dont matter to him ?
I was sad and angry at the same time because when i told him that i feel close to him and i like to talk to him i meant it .
I have not spoke with him until 24 April 2016 .
Feeling this way can be difficult .
It's difficult cause I feel inferior from other adults .
I am childish I know maybe it's not normal cause I must behave like an adult .
I miss the innocence of children , this is what I like so much about them .
I would like to see the world from a child's eyes .
I would like an adult to take care of me .
And if I knew a preteen boy has this need too I would like to help him .
If I met an childish adult with childish soul and look like myself I would liked it.
If I was not depressed and was happy inside i would easily imagine myself play with children , listening childish music together . going to a childish theatre together .
Dont go your mind somewhere vulgarity , i want to be with children as friends .
But i found out that children now days starting behave like they are older their age .
God this is repel me so much !
I feel more ''child'' that children now days .
Little girls want to grow up fast and become women and little boys want to grow up fast and become men .
Though they should be happy for being kids and so beautiful like angels and play and run happily in playgrounds and watch cartoons with an innocence in their soul .
Once a 9 year old boy when i put him to listen a childish music or watch cartoons told me ''these is for babies'' , can you believe this ? a 9 year old told this to me .
Sometimes i want to save these children , to protect them and make them children again cause i feel like a child but with more rights than the ''real biological'' children .
I just meth him in park mommy and i had too get bus and he was realy nice mommy and got me mcdonalds and we went for drive mommy and im sorry and he had beers and some whiskey and said im the most prettiest girl he knows and just wanted too be boyfriend and girlfriend mommy and so we kisseded and im sorry mommy we were drinking and he rubbed my ** and ** and put his ** in me and i rubbed his ** mommy and put it in my mouth for a minute. Im sorry mommy and i love you mommy xxxxxx
My sweet little angel you are an innocent cute girl . You were only a child my sweet only 11 I admit that I liked it . But be careful sweetie . I put a ** in my mouth too sweetie when I was 21 he was a stanger and I was drunk I don't remember his face . How old he was yours my sweet ? Oh my sweet angel you are so cute , I want to put your little head on my chest my darling .
Did you have ** with him ?
Hi mommy I fell assleep again and sorry. I thought you were mad at me and my phone went dead again in bed mommy. He only put it in a little bit mommy and i was scared and he said ok and left me at bus and gave me money and thats when mom said she knew i was drinking and were i got money and i told her i found them and she did not beleave me mommy and grounded me for a month mommy and made me go too bed early for whole month and smacked me lots off times before bed mommy. Im sorry mommy and i love you so much and your my real mommy now. Im so bored mommy and mom said i cant mind our neighbours boys later and our pastor will be over too deal with my attitude. I hate them mommy and love you mommy. Your baby angel girl and huggs xxxxxx
Don't apologise my sweet .
I think you are very lucky my angel because this man you met then when you were 11 didn't ** you . Was he your age or older ? I won't judge my sweet I just have curiosity . My sweet why your mother has this horrible ? Just because of your past ? I mean you told me when you were 11 it happened this situation with this man and when you were 12 happened this situation with a boy . I don't judge my sweet but I will ask , do you still speak or meet with some men or anything else ? If you do it your mother behavior is still horrible but she has it for a reason . I don't agree with her behavior on you at all . Except of she was so crazy that even without doing anything she smack you.
Im sorry mommy and i love you so much mommy. My mom told me i was a brat at her friends house yesterday and it was going too stop. Shes in our neighbours house mommy and i want too sneak down too kitchen and get some off drink mom got for xmas and there is lots there mommy and i bet she wont miss it mommy. I hate them mommy and she said our pastor and his stupid wife will be here after 6 and that there disapointed and that our pastor is going too give me a proper smacking. Im not letting him mommy and why should i because its not fair. I wish i was with you mommy and you would let me stay up with you and drink when i wanted mommy. Your my real mommy and your angel baby girl xxxxxx
Im sorry mommy and i love you so much mommy. I sneaked drink mommy and moms still in our neighbours haveing a drink or coffee. I want too live with you mommy and sorry xxxxxx
Im sorry mommy and love you xxxxxx