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I am 23 years old . Since i was a child i felt like i am inferior than others . I remember that others kids often did not like me . My mother was strict and smacked me . I started to jealous from a young age the appearance of other girls . In primary school i was jealous my best friend . In secondary school and high school i was jealous my second best friend who i am close with until these days . I feel like nobody like me for who i am . I feel like i am inferior and confined and i am sick of it . When i was a teenager i wanted friends so much and i was emotional but i remember that others laughed at me thinking i am stupid and then i started to have anger inside me . I started to hate myself. Now i feel empty . I am not as emotional as i was in my childhood and pubery . You may think i am a bad person but really i don't really care about anyone not even my parents, i only care if they have money to give me . And if my sister is at our house i get annoyed . And i don't want to pretend like i care when someone tells me something . To be honest there are people who treat me nice but it does not touch me in my heart . I start wanting to control other people and i would like it if they afraid of me . I need people when i am alone because i believe if i am alone it wiil destroy me and maybe i end up killing myself someday. I usually like the company of people i jealous , if i don't jealous someone then he/she is indifferent to me . But when i have people close to me i don't want them and i don't care about them and they left me empty . I am egocentric person , i know many people wouldnt like me for this . Deep down i like this side of me , the side that wants to control people but also deep down i have guilty because i must not feel this way . I express this side of myself when i like evil characters from cartoons . I often sympathise with little spoiled girls who jealous and wants control the world and use their parents for anything they want . Maybe its good i have not a super power because i believe i would be arrogant and more egoistic than now that i feel like i'm nothing .
Hi princess. Your parents let you go too a club were they sold drink sweetie and did your daddy help you out off your clothes along with your sister prescious. Im sorry angel but the next day i would have sat you down and being very crosse my love. Im also sorry too say petal but you would have being grounded for at leas two weeks and have most certainley gotten your bare bottom spanked angel. But as told you my love i would have held you after words. Daddy loves you so much prescious and see our baby girl is messageing you princess. Shes such a cutie my love. Love daddy....
They didn't know i went to a club . I lied to them . I said i was only go to a friend's house . I understand daddy . Can i ask you something daddy ? You said you have depression . Are you taking antidepressants ? If yes , do they help you feel better ?
I am on tablets princess. But have not took them in a few months prescious too be honest. I hope you dont think daddys too strict sweetheart. But im strict only because i love you angel and want you safe. You would probabley be mad at daddy for grounding you and spanking you prescious. Even at 16 my love but your allways daddys little girl. Love your daddy...
I understand daddy . I think i want to start tablets too . Because i can't stand this emptiness anymore . And i can't stand myself . I prefer to have happiness even a little even if this happiness come from pills .
Why did you stop them daddy ?