My courage stands strong

I finally broke up with my gf of 3 Years. We’ve had our ups and downs but now it’s attachment as time went by se began to hide things from me. Communication and honesty are my main purposes in a relationship. Besides the fact that her parents never are never will like me. I grew the courage to end things. Not feel attatched. Not feel like I use her for a f***. I’m 23 Years young currently in college for a bachelors degree. I feel so free. No hurt. No pain. No attatchment. When we were still together I felt clogged boxed up manipulated, into making me
Think there was still love and attractiOn. She changed drastically but I blame my narcissism and anger issues. I put her through so much that majority of her imperfections are my fault. I feel as if it’s the best thing for the body of us. My family used to say she was no good for me but I always held back because I was a scared man to be alone. I distanced away. Now I’m walking away. Worst part is she lives with me and she feels the need to move out or that she’s being kicked out. But how does one cope when your gf of 3 Years can’t take you to her family cook outs but you can all because her family doesn’t approve of you there’s no respect. How does one get lied to in the face of ill be out with friends when your at your brothers cookout. It’s the little things that matter. I’d never hold her back from seeing her family so there’s no need for the lies. But I will say I’ve always been the victim disrespected, constant competition with her family. They could never get over the fact that her daughter was happy and I changed her life In positivity bringing her to church, stopped doing drugs, got clean, finished her degree, I was always her rock. Stood up for her from my family. But never once did I receive back the standing up for your relationship part or respect. She’s always been a daddy’s girl does what her parents say. Always would cut me off in birthdays,xmas,thanksgiving and go alone to her parents house for holidays. My family respected loved her! Every year it’s the same thing I’m big on family but I’m also big on standing up for the one you love. Anything to make her parents happy. I went to school and got a degree so they could see I could provide for their daughter. How low did I go to please someone who will always think so pitiful of me. My dignity was stomped on. I don’t wish anyone to ever go through such thing. If you love someone truly you will stand up for him/her. Depression and anxiety hit me like rocks because of this woman. How can a person be so stuck on never maturing up. I was weak and over stressed my relationship was mentally draining me to my heart that I was getting physically weak! it’s like being a new puppy forced to be taken away from the mother and that puppy will be kenneled up when you leave. The frustration and anxiety and solitude the puppy feels that was me. I don’t ever want to put myself last for someone who never appreciated me. I don’t want to feel like I’m forced to love someone. I don’t ever want to feel used again. I don’t ever want to give myself in full to someone who won’t give back. If your not happy leave the situation before you hurt. This hurt I felt is drenching away. Life goes on love yourself before you love someone unconditionally. My god I feel so relieved and free. Thank god for who ever created this website

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