What is God
I've considered myself an agnostic for the past 3 years because I believe there has to be some god, but don't know how to prove him, nor do I believe that God dictates our lives. Occasionally I do pray to God, and recently I've been praying when I'm thankful or proud of myself to make up for years of just blaming God for everything.
Last night I posted a few confessions, mostly about lying to my potential boyfriend, and felt so horrible I was depressed. I was so emotional that I prayed to God for my boyfriend to forgive me for being a liar, for the strength to not be guilted forever, and for God to forgive me for being a liar. I got emotional, started crying, and even said an "Our Father" despite not believing in church.
Today I woke up and felt a much better. Not great, but more comfortable and focused forward instead of regretting everything. Did God answer me? Did God give me the ability to move forward, even if it was for a brief moment? At any length, I am extremely grateful for him to answer me in some way, and wouldn't say my faith is restored, but more that I feel more connected to whatever God/presence there is out there.