Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

Three years ago I married a much much much younger woman who I knew had been involved with a number of black men (she worked as a hostess in a mostly-black club), and who had persistently encouraged me to leave my family and divorce my wife of 22 years. She had assured me her history with black men had been all bad and she was done with them forever. We dated for several months before we got married and I saw no indication that she was dating anyone but me. (I'm not proud of this, but I also had her followed for a while before the wedding, to see who she might be seeing, and found no evidence that she was cheating, whether with blacks or whites). Long story short, she got pregnant two months after the wedding, and nine months later delivered a black baby. I was horrified and humiliated, but I stayed with her and we are raising the baby. She promised she would stay away from black men, but I doubt that she is. I know there are at least five different black men who have come to the house at different times while I was out of town on business, because my neighbor told me she'd seen them. I think what you've said about black maleness being irresistible to white women in general is so true. I want children with this girl and I don't know if I could handle another illegitimate pregnancy, but I can't say I'd be surprised if it happened. It will sound so insane, but it's true: a part of me hates her for cheating, and for embarrassing me and not hiding the fact that I appear unable to satisfy her sexually, but there's another part that is excited by her sluttiness and whoring. It's hard to understand or express.

Ohh boy! what else is a man to do?She must have seen you coming and knew you would stay for good or for bad:). Thou shalt not covet,but all I would want is one woman,just like your wife!

So completely odd that you said she saw me coming. I didn't mention or even imply this but I've known the girl almost her entire life. She and my youngest daughter and a third girl were best friends from pre-kindergarten through sixth grade. At that point Zoey (now my wife) started developing physically, and also started developing some troubling social and sexual habits, and so my wife made my daughter separate from her, as did the mother of the other girl. My daughter told me (before she stopped speaking to me) that Zoey had this planned out for years. I think my daughter was just being vindictive, because I don't think Zoey is that patient or cunning: she's much more of an in-the-moment person. But after the baby surprise, I don't know who or what to believe anymore. I'm not even sure I can trust my own wife at all. Who would? Anyway, you may be correct about her intent in this whole thing, and about it possibly having been a long-term thing for her.

Over the years my daughters friends have had a crush on me. I have talked to some of them but I have not been able to bed any of them due to various circumstances,among them is the issue of what my daughters will say and think about their friends or me and distance(their friends live out of state).Distance has helped me more than anything.I would have knocked up some of them by now.

If Zoey had a crush on me when she was young, I was completely unaware of it. I actually never saw much of her anyway, since I worked late a lot, and unless she was sleeping over at our house with my daughter and their other friend, I would see her only very rarely. She's much much more eye-catching now than she was then, but maybe I just wasn't paying attention. Your experiences seem very different, so your perspectives on the point are valuable: is it plausible that a young girl could develop feelings for an older guy and hold on to them for 4-5 years or more before acting on them? The possibility seems really remote to me, but what you said made me wonder about it, especially in light of my daughter having said Zoey had plotted this out. And also: have you ever dated any of your daughters' friends? And was it in secret or out in the open?

The combination of social media and women's empowerment and many other developments makes it possible for women to cheat now and some selecting black men among many choices.
Unlike decades past,women are now very sexually aggressive and would seek it and ask for it more often. My experience has been that most white women I have slept with,whether married,divorced or single,have approached me first. Some would not take no for an answer no matter what I did or said.Some would pay for the motel room,whenever it was not possible to use their place or mine.

some women who cheat are the ones you would never of expected to be cheaters and they are almost always the nastiest **.

Exactly.That is why most men think they have faithful women in their lives but all they have is a private ** who masquerade as faithful,loyal,dutiful girlfriends/wife.Your woman, who claims not to enjoy oral ** with you is the same one who loves to let me shoot loads into her mouth and she swallows it all and milks my ** dry and comes home to kiss you without even showering or brushing he teeth.She probably enjoys discreet ** with her close girlfriend too. Go figure!

OMG! What you said could have been written about me! Well except for the ** with my girlfriends part! That is exactly what I do! My husband and I have been married for 2 years plus but we started dating and then living together when we were back in college. Its been almost 5 years total and the entire time I have been cheating on him with one black guy or another (and sometimes more than one at a time). I really can't get enough black ** and even though I say I'm going to keep it safe and normal when I get around a black man GOD I just start getting hella ** and I start wanting it rough and rude and pervy. Its weird that I do that because everybody thinks I'm a good girl. Its even weirder because black guys all seem to know that I'm freaky even though I look like I am so TOTALLY not. They even laugh about bringing the nasty ** out in me even when they don't know what I'm like around the black meat. You are so so so so so so right about me coming home and spreading the juice around whether its in my mouth or my puss or my **. My husband has no idea how many times hes gotten some other guys reeeeeeeally sloppy seconds or tasted his ** when he kisses me. There was one black guy a couple of years ago who figured out my M.O. and so he started making sure he nutted in my mouth right before I left to go home. He laughed about it all the time and loved sending me home leaking his sauce and sharing it with my husband. Don't know how you knew all that but you got it exactly right! I mean I don't know how many other women are like me but I doubt I'm the only married freak who likes to share the love with her husband.....without telling him about it of course!

You sure are freaky!
Around this time two years ago,a mature married white woman from out of state contacted me on a craigslist ad I had running. She was coming to my city for a 4 day conference.She stayed at a fancy hotel down town,few blocks from my job.As soon as I got off work,I would go to her hotel room and we would ** like rabbits.
She was boss at her job and hubby(black) was boss at another place,making them very well off financially.I think she said they met in college and that was 6th married white woman I slept with who had met hubby in college.From what she showed or told me,she lived well and was greatly loved.She just did not get the sexual satisfaction from her hubby anymore and had no plans to divorce him.
We had ** before she left(she loved doggie) and joked that her hubby would want to have ** with her as soon as she walked thru the door.She probably would have been dripping some of the juices I had pumped on her for those 4 days.
I had from her a few times after she arrived back home and lost contact with her thereafter as expected.
What is one of these black guys gets you knocked up?

I been reading all this this morning and omg.....now i think im gonna break up with my white bf and start a relationship with this hot black guy i know and give my husband a real surprise next summer! super hot!

Good for you and thanks for reading all these!
Tell us more about you and your plan please.

yes oh yes! my favorite thing to read is the discussions about "nature", like how its natural for white women to be with black men and even maybe especially if their married. i really like the idea of a white woman married to a white man to find a black man who will not only control her but will control her husband and family too in order to get pleasure for himself. and even more the idea that a black man can just walk in a room and tell immediately which white women and girls are ready to go with them. and also what one said about our wombs secreting some kind of hormone that tells a black men we are ready for their babies and maybe lots of them! probably the sexiest are those white women who wrote about hooking their own daughters up to go black!!!! OMMFG!!! i admit i never ever thought of any of that before this and never even read anything about any of those ideas about control. its all a wonderful idea and i think now that it is true! wow! so ** and super hot!

Did you hook up with the black boyfriend yet?Bi-racial pregnancy?

not yet but im seriously working on it. i broke up with the white bf (no great loss) already coz i know he cant give me what i realize i want now. and then i met the black guy i had in mind but i didnt tell him what i had in mind coz i wanted to test him a little. we ** a few times and the ** was great and he had a really nice ** but omg god this dude was super stupid and just a common street ** even tho hes pretty good looking. after maybe the 5th or 6th time we ** i decided i couldn't have a baby by this moron animal and that i needed to find somebody better and smarter and more smooth. i met this one other guy in a bar and let him pick me up but the ** was lame. then i talked to one of my married white girlfriends who dates blacks like exclusively (on the side) coz i met this one particular guy she dates and he is exactly what i am looking for and i tried to get her to hook me up but i made the mistake of telling her my secret plan coz i thought shed be happy for me for once in her miserable ** life but she just got all possessive of the ** and all jealous of my plan so she hasnt introduced us yet and im afraid she is going to take my plan and start having babies for that guy HERSELF. i doubt i can compete with her because she is soooooooooo ** nasty and does things i dont do but maybe she knows another majorly hung black guy who has some sophistication on him (but who can still cover a girl in that sweet ** **). i dont need a husband, i have one of those: i just need a smart strong strapping ** who can make a filthy playground out of my womb and who can dominate me and my entire family. i know that it will totally happen but it hasnt happened yet.

what a nasty nasty **. gotta love her!

DITTO!!

when i was 15 i started high school and got new friends that i hung out with. one of them was elissa whose dad was super hot and he was attracted to me too. it took over a month but we finally started dating and it was so great and he had so much money that i decided i was going to get him to divorce his wife and have a new family with me. eventually he left his wife and kids like we agreed and then when i turned 18 he married me when i didnt need a parent to sign anymore. i had wanted to start having children for him even before he left home and while i was still in school (i think that is soooooooo **) but he kept saying no and he even kept saying no after we got married. then i discovered that he didnt have as much money as i thought and that i would have to work if we were going to have the finer things in life. so i went to work but even then he said he wanted to wait to have more kids because some of his were still in school (his oldest daughter had been my best friend at the new school and she was how i met him). about that time i got switched to a new position at work and my new boss was this hella FINE black dude with a black wife and kids at home. well eventually he knocked me up and i didn't tell my husband whose it really was i just let him see the proof when the baby arrived before i explained it all to him and thats when i took control of the whole relationship. since then ive had 1 more child for my boss and him and me are planning 2 more. my husband hates it but i dont care bcos im getting what i want. so i think if you find a really controlling and really young white girl that you can have this kind of relationship with her that im having where she can boss her white husband around and just keep making black babies for you. my man totally loves the fact that my husband cant get me off him no matter what he does AND that my husband cant divorce me because he loves being married to a young girl who just stays on his ** all the time. LOL!

Simply breathtaking! How old are you now if I may ask? You got so luck am happy for you and your boss/lover but jealous at the same time,lol. Why not give hubby one baby just for his time and troubles? Are you making your boss pay child support or no need for that? You think wife knows whats up? What does hubby's family think and say?

hi again from me and thx for writing me. im 23 now and will be 24 in febr. my kids are almost 5 and almost 2 and my plan is to get knocked up again soon. i have talked to my husband and my boss about giving a child to my husband before having 2 more for my boss but i have another possible plan that i will probably do instead bcos it just seems more sexier to me but i havent decided it yet. my boss has wanted to give me support for the kids but my husband wont take it so i take a little and hide it and spend it on myself. no my boss' wife dont know anything and she would kill both of us if she did know shes such a scary **. my husband family said the first baby proved that i was a ** and i didnt love him really and after the second one by the same father they all aksed him to divorce me and come home bcos his ex hasnt remarried and is still not dating anybody. i think he would like to go home to them but he knows he wont get any more of this ** and he knows its better than hers and better than any hes ever had and he secretly loves how dominant i am over him so hes not going to leave probably. but for you i say you should stop being jealous and just go get yourself a really young white girl who just got married whether to a young guy or especially to an older guy. there are lots of us out here who love black men and who want there babies and you can totally find you one!

Thanks for finding the time to reply.Now,you alluded to a plan you have in mind that you think is much more sexier.Can you talk about that for a little bit please? I have tried hooking up a nice white girl but it has not worked for me yet.I am hopeful and thanks for the encouragement:)

i really truly do thinkg that you can find a white girl who wants what you want i really do because so many white females nowadays just totally love black guys and nearly all of those who do would also love to have babies for them. one reason i know is my sister but there are others too. like i told you i had wanted my husbands kids when i was still in school bcoz i think that is so ** for a girl in high school to get herself knocked up in general but even sexier for her to get knocked up by a married guy but terry wouldnt go with it like i wanted (mine would of been even better than that bcoz terry is the father of elissa who was my best firend at the time). well my little sister did that while she was still in school and the father of her baby is a married black man! and then like a month later her best freind did exactly the same thing and she was even younger than my little sister! so thats partly how i knew there are lots of girls out there who will love to have you knock them up and probably more than once maybe even a lot more than once. i have to go back to work from my smoke break now but i will tell you later about what i may do for my next baby. have a great day sweet baby!

I've secretly been deeply in love with a black man who is a friend of my father's. I have had those feelings for him for over 20 years. I'm 36 years old and I've been married to a white man for 13 years but I've been in love with the black man the entire time. If he ever asked me to leave my family I would do that the same day he asked. I would leave my husband for him. I would leave my children for him. My fondest wish and my hottest fantasy is that he would knock me up and we would have a mixed-race child together. And if that happened I doubt that anything in the world could keep us apart. Certainly not my family. Not my parents. Not his wife. Not his kids. Not the church. Not work. Not anything. I truly love him and I truly want his babies. Yes not just one but many. I want the feeling of being knocked up by a real man and carrying the babies of a real man. I doubt it can happen for us. But I understand your desire for it. I truly do. And I hope your dream comes true.

What an amazing story you have shared;I sure hope and pray that your dreams come true for you.Maybe your Santa gift this year will be a connection with this black guy.You have been brave to share such a heart warming story.I support good marriages and happiness and everybody deserves both and some. It seems to me that though married,your heart and mind is lacking satisfaction and is longing for true happiness.I always think that its not good to just sit there and be miserable while the world passes one by.If you act on your feelings,you may be viewed as selfish and whatever happens to your family and his will be a direct result of your selfish actions.However if you don't act on your urges,you will continue to be miserable and at some point,you will hate that you did nothing about this for the last 20 years...thats almost a lifetime.You need to find a way to contact this lucky black guy and tell him what is in your mind.Even if you do not get knocked up by him,just fvck him to satisfy your desires.At 36,you still have a chance of getting many healthy kids.You will always be the mother of the kids you currently have.Divorce is not a new thing, it is a bad thing but can be good depending on why it happens and how it is handled. By desiring another man for 20 years while married,it is quite possible to conclude that you are not giving 100% of your heart to your hubby and kids,your life is not 100% fulfilled and thats unfair to you and your family.Your hubby deserves 100% of you and if he can't get that,you need to release him so that he can seek and get that and hopefully you can get what you want.You are a woman and I believe women are very creative.Then ts pointless for me to tell you how to get your lips on your dad's friend, if you chose to. There is nothing your parents,hubby or anybody else can say to keep you from getting this guy;you have all the power.He probably knows you want him n his kids.What u gonna do now?

Hi. I'm the white grad student who wrote you back in the summer. This site went crazy and got itself hacked and then they wouldn't allow posts or comments so I just stopped logging on. Then this morning I decided to try again and everything worked! Anyway I hope your still here and still **. I am still dating Agnes the married black lady who works in my department. We are totally in love and are a couple. It's still all secret but it's totally real. We had a difficult period a couple of months ago where she felt bad that she was married and living with her husband (she can't leave but that's a long story) and sleeping with him and even having to have ** with him sometimes and I had no girlfriend so she was pressing really hard for me to get one so she wouldn't feel like she was taking advantage of me but I finally convinced her that love is love and it's all I need and SHE is all I need no matter how much or how little we make love or spend time together. We have to be careful too about it looking at the office like we're dating because work doesn't allow that (** harassment, can you believe that?) so it really is difficult for us to spend quality time together but we do it. I belong to her and she is getting used to me feeling that and saying it. One thing we do now as a show of our love for each other is that every day before she goes home (I stay later but because I come in later, after classes) we go up to an empty room on the top floor of our building and we **. Its just for a few minutes but the ritual is that she goes home to her husband now every day with my ** in her body. She says she loves the drive home with my juice inside her and she loves walking in the door to him with my juice inside her. She says she can actually feel it swirling around in her and she loves seeing him and feeling me in her body. Just the idea is so romantic its beautiful to me. Anyway just wanted to let you know that Agnes is everything to me now. I love her.

You cannot imagine how excited I am to hear from you.I have been logging in and checking to see if you have any new updates for us and I am so happy things are going rather well for you and Agnes. Amazingly,I have started talking to a 24 year old lady named Agnes and that made me think about you and your situation often. Be careful,you may knock her up(believe it or not) and then her hubby's wrath will spill all over you.But I am sure at her age,she knows what she is doing and will be careful and may not even care if you did. Keep her for as long as you can,I am sure you can see how safe it is to have her at your age compared to a younger woman.You can do whatever you want once graduate school is done.Love can be found in amazing places! Her hubby is drinking your liquid daily, and he probably knows whats up but letting it ride,lol. You will be caught someday and all this fun will end,enjoy it while you can. I met a very old white guy today and he was telling me about all the black women he ever slept with.I could tell he was totally addicted to that black skin and how they rocked his world.Does she know that you posted in this blog?Are there cameras monitoring the "free motel room" you using upstairs? Thanks much for the update and please,keep them coming. Good luck in school too.

So glad you've found yourself an Agnes to date and I hope she's half as ** and half as good as mine. This woman is unfuckingbelievable!!!!!! I've never been with anybody who could ** like this not even close and nobody who could ** as much or wanted to ** as much. Shes nonstop. WOW! We are really careful so I don't think we'll get caught because shes had lots of affairs before and never got caught. You told me at the beginning that it would help my attitude to hook up with a black woman and I didn't really believe it but let me tell you that Agnes has totally made me forget about having lost four girlfriends to black men: that doesn't even enter my thoughts anymore because she is so much more woman than Nicolette or Andrea or the others COMBINED, that I am much better off with her than anybody else. She knows about my losses that way and she tells me all the time that those relationships were part of my destiny to find her and be with her. You were right and she is right: I do appreciate her more because of all the ** I went through. And to be honest, I really would love it (though I don't tell her this) if I knocked her up. That's how much I love her. And sometimes, I even try to ** her harder and ** more and more just to see if I can impregnate her. I would love for us to have children together.

Have you asked her if she is still able to have kids/ovulating,on the pill or using any form of birth control? Can you figure out her ovulation cycle?

Wow you are always ahead of me! She thinks I don't know her cycle or even how to determine it but that was one of the first things I figured out about her. It wasn't because I wanted to knock her up then but just because I was so amazed by her body that I wanted to know everything but a man can't really ask a woman about all that so early in a relationship. She has always used the gel for b.c. even before we met because she isn't able to use any of the hormone methods (pill, ring, etc.) and she's even had me do it using the applicators before we **. I don't think I would ever do this but I'll be honest....I have fantasized about using a blank or an empty or just misapplying it and then if she gets pregnant I would pretend to be as surprised as she is. I mean the gel isn't nearly as effective so the possibility always exists anyway (maybe 10%) and in my fantasy when I don't give her the gel I ** her more and I just keep ** and ** until I have nothing left and then I send her home to her husband virtually certain that she has my baby in her. Like I said I don't think I could do that to someone I love but it's still a hot fantasy I have. Plus I assume she's ** her husband a lot too so if she turned up pregnant we couldn't be sure who the father was until he/she was born because I'm sure there are days when she's ** us both. And something else about that..... it surprises me that I'm not bothered about Agnes ** us both. In other circumstances that might really depress me but she's giving me more than any other woman ever has (and better) and honestly it is really exciting to be involved with a woman who can ** as much as Agnes can and yet still keep ** more and more. (She told me that at one time a few years ago she was dating five different guys outside her marriage.....can you even believe that???!!!) But mostly I just wanted to say that you just keep seeing all of this so far ahead of me. I'd hate to play chess against you. :)

After two years of deep postpartum depression, and a year of mostly-unsuccessful treatment, my very beautiful and very white wife came home from picking the children up at daycare one day and announced to me that she was going to start dating. She said she had given it a lot of thought, therapy was a waste of time and money, nothing else was working, and so she was going to start having ** with other men. Although she had never been with a black man before, every man she dated was black. The change in her attitude was, I hate to admit but have to admit, dramatic and nearly instantaneous. She finally connected with one particular black man, a married guy, and she has dated no one else ever since. That was last fall that they started dating, almost a year now, and while I am not trusted with any of the intimate (or other) details of their relationship, I have the strong suspicion that they are planning a family like the one you have described, where they remain with their own families (his wife has no clue about the affair; only I know of it) but still have a child or children, relying on the white husband to raise it. She's not told me any of this. The only reason I think it's so is that, where she used to keep her birth control pills, they are no longer there, or anywhere else that I can find them. So, my belief is that she's off birth control altogether (I see no evidence of sponges, rings or diaphragms, and I know she despises condoms) and that I may soon be faced with the choice you've described for white husbands: accept the illegitimate offspring fathered by my unfaithful wife's black lover, or walk.

Waoooo! I had to read your post twice,just to make sure I am not imagining this.First,I must praise you for not harming this woman.It takes more guts than most men have to handle a situation like this. Secondly,you have made a great step in sharing your private hurts and dilemmas,though privately and anonymously,with a wider audience.Thirdly,I think there is healing in sharing.It might be time consuming but if you read this entire thread,you will see that many men and women are in your shoes or want to be.I bet you,many people stop by here to read the updates but are suffering privately and don't have the energy or will-power to face the reality and express what troubles them. Fourthly,your wife either trusts you or lacks the will to take off and be on her own. If you see no signs of birth control anywhere in the house and she is still of child bearing age,I can assure you that you are right-a live child is in the offing.Fifthly,it sounds good that she has settled with one lover,as that may lessen chances of stds.Your only choices are really what you stated-either walk or stick around and enjoy the show. What are you planning to do? Have you met or talked with her lover?(not that its gonna make a difference at this point because she will always be unfaithful,as she seems to enjoy it).Does she ever give you a chance to be sexually intimate with her any more? You have a life-long to deal with this,its not the end of the world or road.Just do what you think is safe,prudent,and just for you and your kids, without forgetting their mother.She may have made "bad decisions" but she is part of the kid(s) you love so much. With or without her,your life and that of the kid(s) must still go on and thrive.May the Lord give you strength and good fortunes.

I really appreciate your kind words, and your understanding: that means more than you might think. Yes, I truly love my wife, and for the most part she's a good mother. Naturally, I hate the idea of sharing her (her heart, her mind and her body) with anyone else, but I realize that she is much happier now than at any time since the birth of our last child: in fact, she seems happier now than at any time since I've known her (she was still a teenager when we first met). All of our friends have noticed it, though only two of them (both, her friends) know why. Her affairs, I hate to say it, have been good for her. And if I truly love her, then I have to want what's best for her, don't I? This is the question I wrestle with every day of my life, and I seek guidance by prayer for an answer every night. She tells me nothing about her relationship with Aaron, and although I've not met him formally, I've seen him, and I know that he's made love to my wife in our bed at our house while I've been at work. You hit the nail on the head with your observation about her unwillingness and inability to take off and be on her own: she needs me and that makes me feel more necessary in her life than the situation would otherwise indicate. On the matter of **, I got the occasional roll once in awhile early in her "**" phase (she called it that, herself), and even after she began seeing Aaron exclusively, but now it's been about five months since the last time she let me have her body: she says she's "saving herself for my man". It kills me every time she says those hurtful words, but that's the way it is. Again, thank you so much for your kindness, and I wish you well.

A short follow-up. The possibility of my wife planning for another child with another man was eating me alive so I finally just confronted her and told her I wouldn't allow her to deflect the question anymore. I said I was worried that having another child, no matter who the father was, would plunge her back into the depression that consumed her life (and mine, though I didn't say that) for so long. With absolute joy in her voice and her face she informed me that she's six weeks pregnant. She knew that I knew that I hadn't been inside of her in over five months, but still she said, "My man is the father, and I've never been this happy in my life", and told me there was zero chance of any depression after the birth because "my man will still be taking care of me". Hard words, but an impossible situation. Soon, everyone will know that my wife has been with another man: it won't be something we can hide. She says she's not leaving me and that she and Aaron "expect" me to stay and raise the child as though it were mine. I don't know if I can deal with the humiliation or with the lack of **. (She says I get none until after the baby is born, because Aaron doesn't want my ** or my ** that near his baby. Then after the baby arrives "we'll see".) Just found all this out this week so I have a decision to make. I don't think I'm strong enough to handle remaining in the marriage but I did promise "for better or worse". This is definitely worse.

That sounds like good news to her but a devastating bombshell to you. Her happiness may be your sorrow but you gotta be happy for her since this affair has brought her so much happiness.I knew it was a matter of time before she got knocked up!I am very happy for her and I must admit I am VERY JEALOUS of this Aaron guy who is so lucky at your expense.Yes you have a decision to make;to stay or not to stay,is the question.If the wife says she is not leaving you,can you leave her?If you promised for better or for worse,does that include infidelity, raising another man's child,living through a lifelong of "gossip" and raising a biracial child?Do you seek sexual pleasure elsewhere?Is it proper or fair to stay faithful?Is the wife being unfaithful to you but faithful to Aaron?Do you even have a wife? Can you take another mental breakdown and depression after birth if, knock on wood, it happens to her? Would Aaron even be around once the baby is born? How do you relate with the wife from now to the end of your lives? On a selfish note,why doesn't something like this happen to me? You have a lot more questions to ask yourself and maybe not many answers. The bottom line is,you have to search your deepest depths and face this situation in whatever way your God guides you. I know you will eventually arrive at an equilibrium.I am hoping you will update us on the daily challenges and triumphs that you will encounter on this long journey.

I really feel like your wife and Dameyan,or someone else, are up to no good.Maybe there is nothing to worry about, maybe there is. Ask this Dameyan guy whats up(he will deny everything and lie to you). Then,he will tell your wife that you are suspicious of her activities.It does not sound like your wife is gonna co-operate with you or tell you the truth any time soon. You can just tell her if she is having an affair its okay,so long as she shares the details with you(she will be very reluctant). You can even try the same on Dameyan and see if he cracks. I am almost sure Demayan has snitched on you already(that you locate the women for him) so now your wife is ** and out to revenge coz she thinks u been ** around on her and passing the women over to Damayan.They using your generosity to ** you!Also,if you keep asking your wife about this,she will clamor and distance herself more.You are in a tough spot,if I were you,I will do my thing on the side,till wife decides to be truthful. Maybe Damayan has told her to cut you off and she is just being obedient and submissive to him. So let me ask you;YOU GAVE AWAY ALL THOSE ** AND THIS IS YOUR PAYOFF?Had you befriended his date that night,you would have gotten all the details from her for a few drinks.

** bro! i dont know how you keep hitting the target but you keep doing that! theres one piece of background that i never gave you but you need to know. during the first few years of our marriage my wife had an affair with a guy who was her boss at the time and even tho she was never the submissive type with me or any body else he totally dominated her and she loved that (in addition to the fact that he had this giant ** that she loved even more). so it would make total sense for this big ** dameyan to dominate her the same way and using the same size equipment. ** man i dont know how i didn't put that together myself and you didnt even know it and you saw it **!!! and the other thing you didnt know but somehow really did know is that one of the things dameyan does with his married girlfriends is ** around with their marriages to show his control not just over the wife but with the whole family and one major way he does that is to tell the married woman hes dating to cut her husband off from the **. he told me about that like 3 years ago and said he likes it because it lets the woman know that hes in total control of the ** and nothing goes in unless he says it goes in and that he can use that to control her husband and even her kids. it fits together just like you said just exactly! i didnt get no dirt from d's date Friday night because she didnt have any: she didnt know or care where he was as long as she got the ** for a couple of hours before her curfew at home with hubby. and yes dameyan probably already told her about the white women i sent to him to ** and he would sure make it sound like i had ** them all first and then passed them around. bro i dont know how you got all that but ** you got it all! and now it seems almost for positive that its happening between him and her which i hate.

If you find his date from that Friday,she will snoop around for you and tell you everything!So your wife loves being dominated? I never understand that part of ** life but I know it exists. What you gonna do now?

gonna talk to d today and do what you said. then i'm gonna call his date from last week and do what you said. I dont see no kind of reason not to trust your judgment.

I think D may not be upfront with info readily,but you know him best and therefore you may get some half truths from him. I believe that if you secretly take his date out and make an ally out of her,she will be willing to mine info for you from D.What I am sure will happen is that you gonna stay with your wife,whether or not she is cheating, because you seem to love and adore her so much.If you do,I will not blame you,relationships are complicated and perfection is relative.

I work with a white woman in her 40s who has three black kids (mostly grown now) by three different black fathers none of whom stayed around long enough to be of any help and none of whom ever paid her a dime of child support.

That is sad.Glad she was able to raise them herself. I know a few women with guts like that.I raised my 2 daughters from when they were toddlers to college,without getting a dime from their mom and I am so proud and Thankful to God:)

Yep really kind of amazing. Not an easy life by any means and her kids are all intelligent and responsible. Even the 15yo. Totally devoted to black men and only dates black. Told me not long ago she hadn't had a white ** in her in over 30 yrs and didn't want one. "Black only" for this lady. Even has a tattoo saying exactly that. I haven't seen it (won't show or say where its at) but she swears its there. :) A very very dedicated convert this one.

Please try to find out where that tattoo is out of curiosity and let us know.She has her trained,like daughter like mother,uh!

Believe me I tried. Every time she says "If you were black baby I'd SHOW it to you." LOL. Friend of hers at work is a friend of mine too so maybe she'll find out and tell me. Funny you mentioned the daughter being like the mother.....her middle daughter is a really beautiful light-skinned mixed-race girl who I have had multiple fantasies about and she really is like the mom: way oversexed and only goes black. I'm just SOL with these women! LOL

there are easy cheap white women every where you shouldnt have any problem finding one that wants the black ** and a black baby some of them maybe are married but even some of them would let you knock her up and might even love for you to do that

I am looking,waiting and perpetually hopeful:)

you would excellent revenge for some young white girl whose parents are prejudiced and who wants to get back at them for some reason. meet as many as you can find, in every place you can find them, ask questions about their parents and their relationships with them. so many young girls today prefer black men that you are almost certain to find some who want a black baby for parental retribution. stop waiting, stop hoping, and go get that white **. all best.

You know this sounds easy but I have realized that its not.I do find quite a few women wanting **,but I haven't quite found one willing to be knocked up.I do however see quite a few black guys in my city accompanied with white women who are pregnant or already have kids.It brings me much joy to see that and makes me wish I were in that situation.

i see what your saying. i'm a married black male (40 this fall....**!) and never had an interest in white females but i can tell you they want black men almost all of them. i get the white flirts at work all the time and i'm nice to them but i always say no but i hook them up with some friends of mine who are either single or like to play with the white girls so that makes me a popular cat! lol! luck to you bro.....sound like you deserve it!

Shortly after the birth of our second child, my church-going, conservative, prim and proper white wife went **-crazy. I tried to keep up with her for awhile, but couldn't do it, so she started dating. It was just with white guys at first, but soon she started going with blacks too, and then only with blacks, because (she said) of the size, power, skill, dominance and **-volume. Her appetites are off the chart now, and I rarely ever even get any of her ** anymore, maybe once a month, but sometimes not even that: she "saves" herself for them. Our Christian counselor gave up on her as soon as she started dating, and the next marriage counselor we had said I just needed to "recognize the reality" of her desires and make my choice to stay or go, but there was no changing her. That was all my wife needed to hear, and she went even wilder. We don't go to therapy anymore, but the last time I went (on my own), the woman counselor told me to expect that she would eventually want to bear a child for one or more of her black lovers. My wife has said nothing about that, but after reading all this here, I think there is more substance to the therapist's observation than I initially had thought there was. I had thought that because she was a woman, she was just taking my wife's side, but now I see more to her warning, and I think it could happen soon. That's a scary thought for someone who loves his wife, has two children with her, and wants her back home full-time. But that sexual urge apparently has a power to it, and a history behind it, and it could soon become a part of my life.

I am so sorry to hear you plight..it must be mind boggling to be faced with such a monumental weight in your mind and heart. It would have been a little easier if you had no kids-maybe. The therapists have told you the truth, I think. You cannot talk,threaten or do much to beg your wife into changing. She would have to do it once,and if ever,she has had enough. As the therapist said,you have to choose to stay or leave.Whatever you decide,you are in a fix and I sure wish you the very best.I have no soothing words for you except that ** happens but life goes on.You see how the ladies are posting here!You have a life to live and enjoy and kids to take care of.Make the right choice for you and your kids.God Bless and thanks for sharing.

Jeez, dude......you married a **. Surely you must have seen that in her before you married her. A woman doesn't just suddenly become a **: that was always inside of her, and you must know that. But the for the present..........I say ya gotta cut your losses and dump the ** before she does some real damage to your psyche, or gives you a bunch of STDs. But most important of all, Christ ya gotta get the ** away from your children. YOUR CHILDREN!! If either one of them is a girl, they will become whores too, if left around the ** you married for very long. But even if they're both boys, they will grow up thinking it's okay to use women the way your wife lets herself get used. With your wife's behavior, you should be able to get full custody of both kids and limit the time she can spend with them..........WHICH YOU HAVE TO DO. Keep that ** away from your children. She probably has fresh ** on her when she hugs them, and not only does that make her a disease-carrier, it's just ** gross for her to be around your children with the ** of other men all over her body and clothes. Dump the **. You may think you have a choice BUT YOU DON'T.

so so true and so so sad. ^this commenter is so correct that you really should get dna tests on the 2 kids you think are yours. i think its probable that they arent yours. sorry to say it but i'm afraid its probably true.

I AGREE TOTALLY

(sorry about the all-caps.....it was a mistake....)

Jesus, you people are all either retarded or mentally ill.

Lol,seems like it for sure doesn't it! What a messy fun world we live in.

dont you ever feel bad about the white marriages you ruin

No! Because honestly,I have never ruined any in my life.And if you look at all the posting here,those who respond are excited and delighted to do what they are doing.Thus far,people have reported that their marriages were ruined because of affairs in the past;no one has reported that they ruined a marriage because of what they read here. If you look closely,you will find that there are some people I discourage from even having affairs because its not in their best interest or that of those involved.

there has to be lots and lots and lots of white wives you make love with who stay with there husband but cant have ** with him anymore bcuz she dont want white anymore or he dont excite her anymore or he cant please her anymore or he cant satisfy all her hot urges anymore you should feel bad about ruining all those white wives and single white women that way bcuz there still so ruined

Its awesome for a guy to seduce any woman,whatever the marital status,to a point where she decided to **.But I have never ** anyone so all has been consensual.The thing is though unless a guy rapes a woman,she is the one and only who can let a guy get between her legs,** or,in her mouth. By the time the woman willingly decides to ** a guy,she has made a mental decision that all is good and a go.She will hate or dislike you if you disappoint or stand her up or find someone who could.I believe that whatever the marital status,any woman is likely **,period.Marriage does not necessarily make women faithful-in some cases,it gives them an incentive to cheat.I strongly believe in giving a woman am ** nothing but pleasure.Therefore,if a woman has an interest in me,I may not necessarily say no and offend her-though am sort of picky and choosy sometimes.Many women have approached me(thrills me)and in that case I have had to make a decision.If I approach a woman,I have already made up my mind that I wanna ** her. In any case and under normal circumstances,a woman ** a guy because she wants to or just cant control herself or simply wanted to ** something.If I don't pleasure her ,someone else will and that is not fair to me or her.I rationalize that by the time she **,if married or has a bf,she has already gotten bored with him or simply wants a new experience and thrill and my job is to pleasure her.If I seduce her and she agrees to ** me,it means she was missing something in her life to begin with and she found it in me,so we all enjoy.Maybe ** will be better with hubby or bf after she ** me,maybe she gets on a new path to seek new adventures from other men.Some guys have posted all over this site that they enjoy watching other men ** their women.Some 23 year old co-worker has been texting me,she lives with bf.She says she wants no sexual anything but her messages tell me something different. I just cant wait for the day.

but that is what i am talking about where a very young girl comes to you and scared to try but seduce you bcuz she had no black b4 but you know you KNOW she cant resist the black man no power to resist the black man so you just wait for her to make the move bcuz she cant help herself and cant stop herself and you know you KNOW that you goin to have her and the longer you wait the more hooked she will be when you finally let her have what she want and what she need she NEED with a black man that you will totaly give to her and bring to her life. you can all ready see that this 23wf living with her man will be ruined ** she has not even had you yet and its pretty much definite she already ruined by you and what she want from you and what you will give her any day now and maybe today maybe TODAY. she will be ruined so so so so bad that she will not ever want her wbf again even if she still live with him she wont want him or his ** just yours just YOURS. if she dont already love you she will love you any day now and maybe today maybe TODAY.

My wife want this so ** bad shecan almost taste it. its something we talk about lots.but she says she cant do it while her parents are alive. theyare prejudice pretty bad and they would die if she showed up with a black baby. shedates black men on the d-l but not all that often and not more than one during any long period there is one she says would be a good father and he happens also to be her biggest ** in her life and best ** ever.i cant impregnant her but we didn't find it out til after the marriage so we are looking to adopt now but she would muchrather do this coz the baby would be hers and we would raise it.

Sounds good to me; I can knock her up for you and you can help her raise her baby.When is she gonna be ready?

her parents really biased againsttheblack.she says she cant do nothing like this while her parents are alive even tho she wants it bad and been talking more about it lately even than before

Maybe she would want a ** just for fun with your permission.

she has my permison already so she dont need it and shes getting all the black men she needs and ever wantsyou would be liketotaly amazed.its just that the thing is she wants them to knnck her up but she cant do that with her parents alive is the thing

Dont understand the prob,,,,,go to a lowclass bar,pick up a trashy white chick,knock it up,

Where is that?

their everywhere,just cheapass bars with cheapass white ** in them,,,,,and they all love the black meat,,,all of them,,

So so so true. I've lost more than one girl to black dudes. That really **.

Why and how did you lose these women to black guys?