Do you ever think why things happen? I don't believe the whole. "everything happens for a reason" bull. There is no reason an 8 year old girl, my little sister should die from an aneurysm. It makes no sense. There is no reason my best friend's niece should have been beaten to death by her father. She was 3 years old. There was no reason for my mother to hate me, when I try so hard to make her happy. Some things have reasons, that I just don't understand, my boyfriend asking out my best friend, my mom getting a puppy when she owes me and my sisters money for over a month of work, or my school, the place I feel safest, most certain, being closed for 3 inches of snow. Why can't I know the reason for at least some things, things I can fix. I want to fix my life. No, I don't. I want to be a kid again. I miss.being an 8 year old. Being able to just be me, act how I wanted, say what I felt, be with my family, before everyone started leaving, before I had to leave DC for Georgia. But I know I can't go back, so I have to let go and focus on the future. I won't like it, but I am weak willed, so I must find a way to make my will strong.