I'm a horrible wife.

I to have the same problem but my X BF came back to town after three years of being away and I had ** with him the second day he was back. I can't refuse him for he has some sort of a spell over me but if he want to ** me in the front yard I would but luckily he hasn't asked that of me yet. The big trouble is I still love him and yet I'm married to my love of my life but I still can't refuse his **. Wow that's it in a nut shell I can't refuse his **. About every two or three days he has me meet him and we go to the spot where he took my cherry and he makes love to me all over again right out in the open and I just pray someone I know don't see me.

I really get that. "Not being able to refuse his **". That's a great explanation for how some men affect us in powerful, inexplicable and irresistible ways. I had a man like that in my own life, but unfortunately he moved like 1200 miles away and so now I can't get on him like I once did. I still occasionally give my husband a plausible lie, fly out to meet my "owner", get a hotel room and spend 4-6 days ** him at every chance he has to get away from his wife. I used the word "owner" because that's what he is. I submitted to him the very day I first met him 9 years ago and I have loved every moment of every visit we have, and they're all with me in the inferior position. I hadn't ever thought of our relationship in the way you described it (so beautifully), but now I doubt I can ever think of in any other way. His ** is a force of nature and I truly cannot refuse taking it into my body and my life. Thank you for your very instructive and encouraging report. You're very lucky.

Keep in mind that you are very lucky as well ; lucky to still have a spouse & lucky to have a owner.. Then again I would own you too if we ever crossed paths, just due to nature. To expand on your narrative, the ** on any man is a force of nature especially when involuntarily aroused & again by nature women CANNOT refuse accepting it into their [body] ** thus ; the fabrication that "**" always is & always will be. It naturally follows that there can only be ALLEGED sexual abuse/sexual misconduct..

For what it's worth I really admire the way you get what you need. I wish I could do this in my marriage too. I have an ex who I know would want to get with me. But I just don't think I'm bold enough.

Cool your jets babe.. You AREN'T bold enough because you have little to offer.. Now GET OVER YOURSELF & focus on the your dang marriage.. You're probably fortunate to be married girl..

It's all in how you look at the relationship. I look at it as **. Very, very, very **. And so should you.

Some people are going to call you a **, but you aren't a **. You have two men in your life, and both of them want to be there. One in your heart, and one between your legs. If you can handle the balance, then just let it all happen. Love them both. There's no such thing as too much love.

Don't hate yourself, please. You're just making things ** yourself. Our hearts want what our hearts want, and our bodies want what our bodies want, and we can't help that. You want both men, so that means you NEED both men, for different reasons and in different degrees. Let yourself enjoy both relationships. You totally deserve that.

OMG......I have the same issue in my marriage. My second husband still comes around pretty often and I can never tell him "no". My current husband thinks I'm a nice sweet quiet wife and has no clue what my second husband is doing to me, or how ** he makes me, or how nasty the ** is that I have with him. I feel like such a **.......but I totally cannot help myself. It's like the man has some kind of spell over me. I hate myself...........but I love the filthy ** he gives me.

Same for me. I was kept by a married man -- a very very HUNG married man -- for six years before I finally accepted the simple fact that he wasn't going to leave his wife. So, I broke it off and quite soon met and married my current husband. My former lover didn't stay away long. Three weeks before my wedding, he came back into my life and told me he would never let me go. I told him it wasn't his choice, but as soon as he took out his **, I realized it really WAS his choice, and I couldn't resist that meat of his. It was too big to reject. He knew I was addicted and he used it against me. I got married anyway, but now we have an affair going that shows no signs of ever ending. He wants me to have his child and not tell anyone who the father is, and allow everyone to assume it's my husband's child. I don't know what to do about that, but what I do know now is that for as long as this big-dicked man wants me, he's going to have me. I think you're in the same situation, and I expect your ex has one of those gigantic schlongs that nobody can resist. Good luck with both relationships.

I know exactly what you mean my XBF is hung very big and I to love his big hard ** for he keeps it up for well over a hour when he ** me silly and I can't refuse him at all and he knows it. He even ** me two hours before I said I do and again at the reception. Luckily he's been gone overseas for the past almost three years and I dread the day he returns but I know I can't say NO to him.

.....theres realy something with these guys with the big ** who know how to control us with them.........for me its this filthy horuse-hung black guy i used to work with. hes really crude and rough and hes not somebody i would marry but.....i mean godfuckingdamn he knows how to jack me up on that humungous ** of his and althoughhes been fucken me for almost 4 yrs i cant remeber once ever resisting him or even trying because i know i cant. my husband is clueless......but the thing that scares me most is the black guy now is talking about taking me off the pill and knocking me up......WHILE I'M STILL ** MARIED! it gets me scared to think of it but at the very same time the idea is turning my nasty ** ON!!

I have to say that the girl who wrote in about getting shagged two hours before her wedding and then again at the reception, well that is the most ** thing I ever read!!!

The same for me. I walked down the aisle with my ex's ** in me. I felt like such a ** but I totally loved it.

You never know, your husband may find it hot. Maybe you can end up with two ** stuffed in you, or you can put a cage on your hubby's ** and make him clean your BF's ** out of your ** after he creams in you.

If you were my wife, I'd lick your ** while you ** him.

I hope this is what happens for you. :)

I think you should tell your husband before it's too late and maybe place a restraining order on the guy if he just comes up to you and tries to ** you.

Get Serious.. You're conspicuously clueless regarding this issue.. Look, the dame's prior man_friend clearly owns her. What is occurring here is ACTUALLY the way nature intended man & woman to exist.. A man has a build up or accumulation of ** in his plumbing if you will that needs release. HE selects a suitable woman to copulate with & deposit his ** to. She must submit to him due to man possessing dominance, authority & strength over a woman.. Marriage here just poses as a obstacle to a woman being a servant, by nature, to a man.. Hence why the female was created SECOND, to again, serve as a complement to Man..

Yes, ownership is actually what this is, and it's what it feels like. I love the idea and the feel of being "owned" by a man other than my husband. When that man knows I'm married and yet still comes after me and refuses to take "no" for any kind of an answer, that's heaven. Absolute heaven.

Of course it is heaven.. What you're stating is in agreement with what I will always stipulate as well as what nature intended.. EVERY dame alive inherently understands her natural feeling is to obey a man, be directed BY a man & always SUBMIT to a man's sexual needs regardless.. I can honestly testify that I have never been refused by any of the countless women I have inseminated, all of which received more than one deposit of my **.. Of course there are many married dames whom I concluded have a pansy_ass for a spouse.. Whenever I called, they made themselves available for my deposit.. You could say I owned them until I moved on.. I feel accomplished in my lifestyle having given heaven to as many dames as I have.. Being a gifted man, it's enjoyable to posses the authority my oversized ** commands..

....ommfg.......what ^you^ wrote brought so many memories flooding back to me......and by flood i mean something like a tsunami of **. during my first almost-three years of marriage to my husband (we are still together) i was also romantically and sexually involved with a man much like you. huge **.....HUGE.......really not to be believed...and he produced a literal river of ** each time he came and whether he came in me or on me. i had always thought of myself as a feminist and an independent woman.....no man was my equal. or so i thought until i met this man with the huge **.........he absolutely brought me to my proper place. subservient and always open-legged. i made myself available for his "deposits" as you call them any time he wanted me. i submitted. totally. my husband knew about the relationship the entire time but could do nothing to end it. he knew this man was my owner and that he was giving me heaven each time we met. he would even come by our house knowing my husband was there and make his deposits in me while my husband was in the house. he and his huge ** were in control and my husband (the pansy ** you called him) was helpless to stop him. this man loved the fact that i was married and still surrendering to him......body and soul. he humiliated me and my husband regularly. and i surrendered one more thing to him...........my womb. i had 2 children by him before he moved on. he was the love of my life and i would have happily divorced my husband and married him but i knew the first time he ** me that we would never be married: he had more women to ruin like he ruined me. yes.....he was just like you. i loved him. and so i also love you. that's right darling.........I LOVE YOU.

For someone that you call the love of your life, you treat him very poorly. You don't respect him, your marriage or yourself. You are clearly not ready for marriage. Eventually something will happen and your husband will find out and leave you. The guilt will eat away at you. That guy you're sleeping with doesn't care about your husband, he has nothing to lose. And he doesn't care about you, but you invite him willingly into your life. It really is a matter of time and when the ** hits the fan, and someday it will. You'll deserve it.

Leave a note on the door telling him to leave before he walks in. Don't be mean but be clear.

You should. Fell bad

My wife is in the same situation with her ex-husband. We live on a different continent now but I knew about it since the day we met. She said she was divorced but her husband would still come round when he wanted and ** her when he wanted and she couldn's say No. I always was a cuckold and always loved the thought of my girls getting ** by other men.
Work has meant that we had to move back to my country but still her ex who is quite well off comes on a business trip at least twice a year and he stays (and we welcome him) as a guest in our house. I move into the guest room for those days or join in. Depends on the situation and the mood.
I guess for some this would be a problem but for me it is what I have always wanted. We are still deeply in love and lead a "normal" family life (except for one aspect!).

^Similar situation^ for me, too. My wife simply cannot stay away from her ex-husband. Any time the guy calls and wants to see her she drops everything (including work, me and our children) and goes running off to climb up on his huge **. Can't help herself, she says. And I believe her.