Just wanna say..
I love you because I do.I know many times I have tried to take myself away yet I cant deny how several times the universe showed me the way to you, yes it might be a firework of my brains but tell me how can I deny, how can I ignore the familiarities.
In my heart I can feel the beat that says your name , my mind remains absorb in your thoughts , my soul feels your essence .I cant deny your power over my heart, my mind, my soul.
I love you because simply I do. Its not that I need to love you or I have no choice or my days won’t pass if I don’t think of you, everything goes on its normal course nothing changes but the love I feel inside roars ,my thirst is not quenched unless I bring you to me, unless I feel your essence in some way or the other.
You are my one true desire,I feel comfort in being out of my comfort zone with your presence by my side,I love you, every cell of my body longs to feel your touch, your deep look into my eyes makes me go crazy I cant stop myself from looking one more time.
I love to look your way. Something, somewhere always direct me to you. I don’t know still why do I love you so much. Its not that you are extraordinary, out of this world, even its not that we are going to have our own world. You have yours and me mine but something within me forces me to come to you always..
Might be The journey without any destination ,or may be the unknown factors drive..
No doubt the very thought that you are no where near to me, never was, I just made sand castles scares me apart yet I cant take myself off. The little means through which I try to reach out make me return every time.
Through the paths we have taken to one another I have loved you, would you believe if I say sometimes being in comfortable places among known people I feel so lonely ,all feel so plastic that I just want to leave and come to my known place to breathe freely.
I know you wont come to me ever the way I want and I even know if I knock your door you will open it though for a short while still i trust you wont deny me this but I don’t know why I cant take that step may be I don’t have that desperation now anymore or may be it got killed with passing time..Now i dont want to intrude into your space . i love to Let it be how it is.
All might be fireworks of my brain ,no certainty ,might be you are not aware of my thoughts, happily placed in life miles away without ever thinking about me ,might not remember we met once at some point of life.
You know I hate my ageing not because the glow is fading but because it made me so matured that now I lack that desperation which made me come to you years back ignoring everything ,now I don’t like to break the barriers I remain content inside ,I make myself understand I love to remain aloof wishing from far you stay well. I love to watch you smiling from far. Now I don’t cry thinking of why and what more needed now I understand everything is not possible.
I totally cherish the beautiful bonding I feel with you…though nothing close to hold yet strongly entwined.But I confess some part of mine is still the same ,so some nights end up in hollow feeling, the void, the emptiness from knowing I wont find you in my arms ever flood my eyes and I greet the morning with wet pillows swollen eyes.
But no matter how things are,how it will be.. I still love you and will always do....xoxo