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I am 23 years old . Since i was a child i felt like i am inferior than others . I remember that others kids often did not like me . My mother was strict and smacked me . I started to jealous from a young age the appearance of other girls . In primary school i was jealous my best friend . In secondary school and high school i was jealous my second best friend who i am close with until these days . I feel like nobody like me for who i am . I feel like i am inferior and confined and i am sick of it . When i was a teenager i wanted friends so much and i was emotional but i remember that others laughed at me thinking i am stupid and then i started to have anger inside me . I started to hate myself. Now i feel empty . I am not as emotional as i was in my childhood and pubery . You may think i am a bad person but really i don't really care about anyone not even my parents, i only care if they have money to give me . And if my sister is at our house i get annoyed . And i don't want to pretend like i care when someone tells me something . To be honest there are people who treat me nice but it does not touch me in my heart . I start wanting to control other people and i would like it if they afraid of me . I need people when i am alone because i believe if i am alone it wiil destroy me and maybe i end up killing myself someday. I usually like the company of people i jealous , if i don't jealous someone then he/she is indifferent to me . But when i have people close to me i don't want them and i don't care about them and they left me empty . I am egocentric person , i know many people wouldnt like me for this . Deep down i like this side of me , the side that wants to control people but also deep down i have guilty because i must not feel this way . I express this side of myself when i like evil characters from cartoons . I often sympathise with little spoiled girls who jealous and wants control the world and use their parents for anything they want . Maybe its good i have not a super power because i believe i would be arrogant and more egoistic than now that i feel like i'm nothing .
Hi my angel girl...
Hi daddy . Don't worry I am on bed . To be honest daddy I feel like ** . I have a little headache and I want to throw up . Yesterday I said some things to the people that were in friend's house and we had a fight . I don't remember what did I said but they remember . I was insulting them for no reason . I asked in message the girl who had birthday and now I wait to answer me . Because of alcohol I don't remember a lot of things . And sure I humiliated myself and others cause when I woke up I saw I had post on my Facebook page that I am dirty ** and it wasn't better when I was faking the modest girl . I deleted but many people I guess saw it .
Hi my sweet little princess. I realy want too hold you now prescious. I have said some things i regretted with drink also angel girl. But you must not beat yourself up my love and all you can do is apolagise. I love you so much sweetheart and was realy concernd for you last night. I want you too promise me rite now my love that you will not ever drink that much ever again baby doll. I asked you also if you ever drank when you were a little girl or young teenager. I have being keeping an eye on our little baby also sweetie. Remember too keep firm with her my angel girl. She the child and she says your her mommy and dont allow her too manipulate you. I also wonder if she still has that drink she stole from her mother. Love you my prescious. Your daddy....
Hi daddy , To be honest yes there were times i was drunk on my teenagers years . I was 16 when i was really drunk and i didn't remember anything . It was like i drunk and went out of the club and then all turned black and when i opened my eyes i was in my house in bed with different clothes . My friend brought me home and when i got in my house my sister and my father saw me and they changed my clothes with new ones . Those things my sister told me when i woke up , she told me the fact that she changed my clothes .When i was a kid the only thing i drunk is a small half glass of wine . It wasn't hurt me and i drunk it in front of my parents . And my first experience with alcohol was when i was 5 , it was an accident . I don't remember it , my parents had told me . My parents and sister and my grandmother were in the kitchen and i was in living room and there we have bottles of alcohol . I drunk whiskey without knowing what it is . And then i got drunk and i went to the kitchen and my parents and sister and grandmother saw me . And they called a doctor and i think they gave me a medicine and i was sleeping for two days . Hug daddy . You are right daddy and this little girl i don't want to end up like me . I don't mean only in alcohol i mean i don't want to end up having my passive character and hating herself like i do .
Hi princess. Your parents let you go too a club were they sold drink sweetie and did your daddy help you out off your clothes along with your sister prescious. Im sorry angel but the next day i would have sat you down and being very crosse my love. Im also sorry too say petal but you would have being grounded for at leas two weeks and have most certainley gotten your bare bottom spanked angel. But as told you my love i would have held you after words. Daddy loves you so much prescious and see our baby girl is messageing you princess. Shes such a cutie my love. Love daddy....
Talk too daddy prescious...
How are you sweetie. Love your daddy...
Hi my princess. You need too answer daddy and let me know your ok prescious. Love your daddy....
You need too answer daddy princess. Im concernd for you sweetheart. Love your daddy....