Conflicted emotions

I love my athletic s/o but I’m enamored by women who want to get fat, or fat women who want to get fatter.
We connect on every level, literally. Except Feedism.
I don’t feel like I settled at all, because we click so well. However some days I just want to play with their fatty parts, or introduce food in the bedroom.

I’m not a closet fat admirer (FA). It’s nothing to brag about, but people know I like fat girls. I just keep my Feedist tendencies to myself. People don’t understand the paraphiliac nature of feedism.
Early on in our relationship they asked if I preferred fat women and I said no- personality and connection are most mportant. I mean/ meant it.

I was/ am very happy in my relationship. Just some days that urge hits and I want to feed a women (consensually) until she’s 500lbs.
The thought of jiggling a big belly, playing and nibbling different rolls, feeding donuts and whipped cream and getting messy eating is such a turn on.

However idk if I’d be happy with that ultimately. I like doing activities with my s/o and talking about things outside the bedroom. I know there’s pros and cons to everything.
Maybe having an incredibly fat s/o wouldn’t make me happy? Would they understand my love for being active? Do I really want to enable and jeopardize their health? What if things fail and we break up and now their a single 500lb women- not that they can’t find love again, but dating would be more difficult bc there’s so many closets and trolls.

TLDR; I’m happy with my life, I love the decisions I made, just some days I want to have fat s** again.

Sep 28

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  • I was in a similar situation. I have an attraction to fat, even fat women since I was a kid. But i caved to the perception that liking a fat woman was wrong. I dated slim women, but always in the back of my mind I wished they were fat.
    I feel in love with a slim girl, we got married, but still in the back of mind I wanted her to get fat. She gained weight with each of our children & I loved, but still wanted even bigger. She lost weight, but still bigger than when we married.
    She caught me many years later after our kids left home looking at fat women on the web. She was devastated, I felt terrible & thought she'd leave me. We had a big talk about it & she asked if I would really like her that big. I was honest.
    She does love to eat, always has, but did worry about getting fat. Which I'd always told her I loved her for being her & didn't care how fat she was. Well, she has just gone with it & I'd also add menopause hasn't or has helped. She's gained weight. She's probably heading for 300lbs. She's happy, I'm happy, s** has gotten better for both of us & I've gotten even more attentive & caring. But I'd still like her a bigger, which might happen as she is very content.
    You may spend years not being totally happy if you keep thinking you want a fat woman & don't satisfy that urge.

  • Just go for it and start dating a ssbbw. You might be better off than agonizing over whether you should have every day

  • Damn. Same situation here bro. No advice for you because I don’t know how to feel about it either.

  • That’s rough, I’m sorry

  • Go be with a bigger person who cares what people think

  • Thank you for responding. I’m not concerned so much what others think, I just don’t know if jeopardizing my great relationship is worth maybe finding someone who wants to get fat. It’s very hard to find people who love Feedism

  • She has no clue you like this ?

  • Not that I’m aware of. My relationship is completely normal, great conversations, great dynamic, great s** (yes I’m attracted to athletic women), it’s awesome with no complaints.

    I’m just constantly trying to block out feedist fantasies throughout the day, or if a fat women walks by I get butterflies.. etc

  • It's what's in the heart that counts. Why is there so much emphasis on how much a person weighs? If you love larger women, this is your choice. I think you are somewhat confused about your s/o because you love athletic women and then you say you don't know if you would be happy with a fat woman.
    I think you are just making all this crap up! Maybe fat women, don't like athletic men!

  • Can you explain a little bit? I love my s/o, find them attractive, but I also love fat women. I don’t know if I should stay and always wonder, or leave and risk possibly not finding someone

  • You have one or the other. Please do not compromise. You will only end up hurting yourself and the other people concerned. Fat or skinny - your choice!

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