I love my athletic s/o but I’m enamored by women who want to get fat, or fat women who want to get fatter.
We connect on every level, literally. Except Feedism.
I don’t feel like I settled at all, because we click so well. However some days I just want to play with their fatty parts, or introduce food in the bedroom.
I’m not a closet fat admirer (FA). It’s nothing to brag about, but people know I like fat girls. I just keep my Feedist tendencies to myself. People don’t understand the paraphiliac nature of feedism.
Early on in our relationship they asked if I preferred fat women and I said no- personality and connection are most mportant. I mean/ meant it.
I was/ am very happy in my relationship. Just some days that urge hits and I want to feed a women (consensually) until she’s 500lbs.
The thought of jiggling a big belly, playing and nibbling different rolls, feeding donuts and whipped cream and getting messy eating is such a turn on.
However idk if I’d be happy with that ultimately. I like doing activities with my s/o and talking about things outside the bedroom. I know there’s pros and cons to everything.
Maybe having an incredibly fat s/o wouldn’t make me happy? Would they understand my love for being active? Do I really want to enable and jeopardize their health? What if things fail and we break up and now their a single 500lb women- not that they can’t find love again, but dating would be more difficult bc there’s so many closets and trolls.
TLDR; I’m happy with my life, I love the decisions I made, just some days I want to have fat s** again.