Venting
My ideal would be my mother and stepfather never getting together and my half-brother never having been born. I choose my father over them. Even if my half-brother may be my family, and my stepfather may be family through marriage and marriage alone, my father is more my family than them. He is my family more than any of my stepfather's relatives either. I would rather my mother have stayed with her ex. I can't wait to no longer live with my stepfather and never see him again.
I totally encourage a good relationship between my half-brother and his father and paternal relatives. I'm glad he got to build a relationship with his grandfather before his death and would ask about seeing him. I totally encourage his father's role in his life. I want it to make the difference stark.
When I'm legally an adult, I'm going to comment on my step-grandfather's funeral video or reach out to his funeral home and express my sentiments.
I can control my own future obituary and funeral program. As soon as I turn 18, I'm going to make it clear in my will that I absolutely, of course, want my father and mother mentioned. In the biographical part of an obituary, it usually mentions a person's parents' names. If I die before my parents (it happens), I want them listed in my funeral program.
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It feels like my half-brother’s existence is a betrayal to the family we had before my mother got with my stepfather and gave birth to their child.
My loyalty is to my father and the family we had, before my half-brother.
My loyalty is not to my half-brother.
I wish, wish, wish so much that he was never born. I wish something would happen to him. I wish for an apology from my mother for having him.