Occasional, to the bone, depression..
Don't know what it is lately, but.. Have had bouts with and occasions of so down mood..to the bone, depression. Hopeless with my career, every woman I meet is crazy and ends badly (usually, but not always, by my own doing, intentionally). Fight the urge to hit the bar most nights, but it's not easy. Keep remembering what my life used to be..Happily married, making good money... Seems like a million years ago now.
I know this isn't me..the real me. But something is absolutely not right. My head just isn't in the game right now. And part of me doesn't give a crap.