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I worship Satan
I'm 29 and married. We go to a local community church called Unity. I have two small children (5 and 3).
My husband's away for business a fair amount (he's a software consultant), and when he's gone, I wait for the children to go to sleep, light a black candle I bought at Walmart, and then worship Satan. I tell him to come into my heart, that I give him my soul without reservations, that I want to go to ** and serve him.
And it's all true. I love my husband, but our ** life is so... dull. I can't stand it. He is _so_ practical and conservative. I got him to go out to the bar a few months ago (my mother was babysitting the kids), and I tried to get some kind of response and just couldn't. I pointed at a ** redhead who was smoking and said "whoa, that's pretty **" (I would _love_ permission to start smoking) and he just said "that's dumb, doesn't she know they cause cancer?" Well of course we do dumbfuck, but we want to have some FUN.
I don't know what to do. I do love my husband, and he's a good father. But I hate living this goody-two-shoes life. I'd like for us to explore more sexually, to try a few other things (go to Colorado and smoke some dope on a vacation). And I hate Jesus and his endless suffering/meek **.
So I worship Satan. I get naked, light the black candle and say some prayers. And I ALWAYS feel better But I need to decide what do do. I love my family, but I cannot live this life!
See thats where you are confused. I never said I didn't believe in God. I said I dont believe the bible, big difference.
I'm saying God, Allah, Odin, Mother Nature, or whoever, they are one and in the same.
Man writes their own books and that is the problem.
You say I choose not to see the signs he said. How do YOU know he said anything? Because it's in a book that man wrote?
And FYI. I'm not the OP, i dont follow Satan.