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I am 23 years old . Since i was a child i felt like i am inferior than others . I remember that others kids often did not like me . My mother was strict and smacked me . I started to jealous from a young age the appearance of other girls . In primary school i was jealous my best friend . In secondary school and high school i was jealous my second best friend who i am close with until these days . I feel like nobody like me for who i am . I feel like i am inferior and confined and i am sick of it . When i was a teenager i wanted friends so much and i was emotional but i remember that others laughed at me thinking i am stupid and then i started to have anger inside me . I started to hate myself. Now i feel empty . I am not as emotional as i was in my childhood and pubery . You may think i am a bad person but really i don't really care about anyone not even my parents, i only care if they have money to give me . And if my sister is at our house i get annoyed . And i don't want to pretend like i care when someone tells me something . To be honest there are people who treat me nice but it does not touch me in my heart . I start wanting to control other people and i would like it if they afraid of me . I need people when i am alone because i believe if i am alone it wiil destroy me and maybe i end up killing myself someday. I usually like the company of people i jealous , if i don't jealous someone then he/she is indifferent to me . But when i have people close to me i don't want them and i don't care about them and they left me empty . I am egocentric person , i know many people wouldnt like me for this . Deep down i like this side of me , the side that wants to control people but also deep down i have guilty because i must not feel this way . I express this side of myself when i like evil characters from cartoons . I often sympathise with little spoiled girls who jealous and wants control the world and use their parents for anything they want . Maybe its good i have not a super power because i believe i would be arrogant and more egoistic than now that i feel like i'm nothing .
Hi prescious and you too are realy kind and careing and much more as daddy told you. Guess our little girl has fell assleep again sweetie. I do be glad she sleeps my love and just sad she wakes up too a cruel mother and joke off a pastor and bullies in her life prescious. Her mother and this pastor and even his joker are adults in her prescious little life. They should protect her and love her allways princess. I feel bad when tell you how strict daddy is my love. But i know with boundaries and proper discipline children know their safe and feel loved. Your truely amazeing prescious and cant say enoufgh how proud daddy is off you and how knew you when you were little sweetie. I can only say im here for you now princess as told you. Anytime you want too message me darling. Wish i could do same for our baby girl also sweetheart. Love your daddy....
Sorry daddy i was watching the comedy , i will sleep now . Thank you daddy . Get well daddy . And you too if you want you can talk to me for yourself . See you daddy .
Morning my sweetheart. Hope your sleeping well my love. Daddy has few things too do princess. But will check in with you in copil off hours or so prescious. Love your daddy...
Hi daddy . I hadn't school today . I went to my psychologist hours ago . Now i am doing something for my school . A dialogue . Hug daddy .
Hi my angel girl. Can daddy ask you how it went with your psychologist today sweetheart. You sound busy princess and proud off you. I have being checking in on our little baby girl angel and shes messaged you alot. She realy challengeing you sweetie and noticed shes says their pastor is comeing over again later. Its just wrong princess. I agree also what you said petal and if her mother was not so strict. I also would not mind her mother finding her drink. But its not discipline her mother or pastor do on little doll sweetie. Its just plain wrong and i know if she was my little girl and caught her drinking then out off love and for her own safetey. I know she would have her little bare buns spanked angel. But as told you my love theres a diffrence in a spanking in love and abuse. Wish yous my two little girls were with me now sweetie. Your doing an amazeing thing with her sweetie. I still beleave she craves your approval and attention princess and even go as far as telling her in know uncertain terms that your her mommy as she calls you angel. Tell her firmley as told you princess that your her mommy and she does not get too choose wether she gets timeout or not and maybe when shes in her room later. Tell her you descided shes not listening too you and tell her you want her standing in corner for however long you choose too have her stand there sweetie. Daddys so proud off you princess and loves you so much angel...
Hi sweetheart. Just check in on you my love..