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I am 23 years old . Since i was a child i felt like i am inferior than others . I remember that others kids often did not like me . My mother was strict and smacked me . I started to jealous from a young age the appearance of other girls . In primary school i was jealous my best friend . In secondary school and high school i was jealous my second best friend who i am close with until these days . I feel like nobody like me for who i am . I feel like i am inferior and confined and i am sick of it . When i was a teenager i wanted friends so much and i was emotional but i remember that others laughed at me thinking i am stupid and then i started to have anger inside me . I started to hate myself. Now i feel empty . I am not as emotional as i was in my childhood and pubery . You may think i am a bad person but really i don't really care about anyone not even my parents, i only care if they have money to give me . And if my sister is at our house i get annoyed . And i don't want to pretend like i care when someone tells me something . To be honest there are people who treat me nice but it does not touch me in my heart . I start wanting to control other people and i would like it if they afraid of me . I need people when i am alone because i believe if i am alone it wiil destroy me and maybe i end up killing myself someday. I usually like the company of people i jealous , if i don't jealous someone then he/she is indifferent to me . But when i have people close to me i don't want them and i don't care about them and they left me empty . I am egocentric person , i know many people wouldnt like me for this . Deep down i like this side of me , the side that wants to control people but also deep down i have guilty because i must not feel this way . I express this side of myself when i like evil characters from cartoons . I often sympathise with little spoiled girls who jealous and wants control the world and use their parents for anything they want . Maybe its good i have not a super power because i believe i would be arrogant and more egoistic than now that i feel like i'm nothing .
Hi my angel girl. Can daddy ask you how it went with your psychologist today sweetheart. You sound busy princess and proud off you. I have being checking in on our little baby girl angel and shes messaged you alot. She realy challengeing you sweetie and noticed shes says their pastor is comeing over again later. Its just wrong princess. I agree also what you said petal and if her mother was not so strict. I also would not mind her mother finding her drink. But its not discipline her mother or pastor do on little doll sweetie. Its just plain wrong and i know if she was my little girl and caught her drinking then out off love and for her own safetey. I know she would have her little bare buns spanked angel. But as told you my love theres a diffrence in a spanking in love and abuse. Wish yous my two little girls were with me now sweetie. Your doing an amazeing thing with her sweetie. I still beleave she craves your approval and attention princess and even go as far as telling her in know uncertain terms that your her mommy as she calls you angel. Tell her firmley as told you princess that your her mommy and she does not get too choose wether she gets timeout or not and maybe when shes in her room later. Tell her you descided shes not listening too you and tell her you want her standing in corner for however long you choose too have her stand there sweetie. Daddys so proud off you princess and loves you so much angel...
Hi daddy . I don't like what i will say daddy . But i try to scare this little girl so she will stop alcohol . I tell her truths anyway . I hope to understand that i tell her the truth . To be honest daddy after the psychologist i feel worse than before . I asked her to give me antidepressants and she refused . I felt like i must be good and ''cure'' myself by myself . It's not bad but i afraid loneliness . I feel weak for this because i should have get stand even if i am alone . I know you are here daddy but really sometimes i get sad because i know it's not your job to fill my emptiness . That's why i wonder why you are so kind . If this little girl's mother wansn't so cruel wish she would catch her daddy and told her to not drink again and got rid off all the alcohol . Hug daddy .
Well my little girl. First off all yes daddy is here anytime you want too message me about anything prescious. I know what its like too be lonley my love. Wish daddy could hold you now princess and why would your doctor not give you tablets too help you sweetheart. My heart is breaking for you sweetie too hare your feeling down. Your amazeing and im allways going too be here too talk with you baby. I love you and its ok princess. Because it helps too talk and share our troubles princess and im allways here darling. Love your daddy and please message me prescious...
Hi daddy . She said i don't need to get tablets for this period i am sad . She said to wait a little . To be honest i am confused if i have or not have depression . Thank you daddy for your kind words .
Well my prescious I beleave you will know yourself angel and maybe wait just a little longer as she said. But im here allways for you princess as said. I see the other post is gone with our baby girl. If you like you can message her here sweetheart till you can set something up for her and not even sure if she will find it here. I will look for anymore posts you set up sweetie and see if she finds you. I just know shes going too be so upset when she cant find you angel. Please message daddy back and daddy loves you so much...
Hi my angel. Daddys realy concernd for you. Will you please message your daddy prescious. I love you very much sweetheart...
Please message daddy prescious. Im concernd for you angel girl. Love you so much sweetheart...