I suppose i will be bullied here too...

Recently i have been ill and but on medications and trying to get better and have been doing ok but for headaches occasionally and bad period pain.... i met a a girl wanted to sell her two 12 year old male cats cuz she works in the airlines and travels a lot and she often leaves them for the elderly man that often looks after them while she is away on work trips... anyway i was interested in taking the two male brother cats ollie and lou .... aged 12 burmese chinillias up sunshine coast way, but my mum said no. i was heart broken wanting to take them. because i am sure they would be no bother to be looked after down stairs as they could come and go as they are used to being indoor /outdoor cats... I am sure they would be no bother to be feed down stairs and we have a double story house with a granny flat and my sister lives down stairs and my dad sleeps down stairs as well... but my mother won't allow me to take them ... because i have been recently sick and i was worried about my cats having to rehome them... if i died... my mum said she is worried if she dies 2 more cats would be a bigger burden... as much as she hates to see them strandard and she said they probably are nice cats... which the owner said they were. she wants to sell them for reasons like her boyfriend/ husband does not really like cats, they want to travel more or have kids etc??? but the cats are not insurred and my mum is hung up over that... to me its not a big deal if the owner now feeds them cheap food and lets them out side and even considers parting with them just for her husbands sake or to holiday which is risky anyway ... how can she really love the cats anyway. i know i could love them more ... but mum said no. which makes me feel like am i gonna get better or she pulling me along ... my mum does not care that i don't have a man and i am now 45 ... she thinks life should just swing along with this way... i thought (oh so what we can take in two older cats who wont be a worry in have them in downstairs at night... given their ages they might only live for 3 years or 5.... they could adjust to live here indoor/ outdoor... but my mother always has to find a negative. she is so negative about everything ... always telling me no man will ever want me when i was younger and still now, and i am bullied every website i go to on the net for phobia or social websites and i live like a prisoner here and have to pretend all is ok... i was bullied and abused by hospital people and then even my gynos receptionist started bullying me saying not to come back and then my neurologist did the same thing.

we were talking about doing up down stairs for backpackers but she will find a gutsache and negative thing to stop that too...

my mother is a b**** lets face it. a born ashole b****... and the pscyhiatrist said ""your mum loves you like i should be just only happy to have a mother that loves me and no one else..." ...

i am not supposed to want a boyfriend or husband or cats or help people out...

she will find an excuse not to have back packers here and she will undermine me for s** ...

i sometimes think my mother is out to kill me ....

being the only clever one among us ... like my sister being the only clever one or my brother who is super mr intelligent mr bull attack no listen just attack ...

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