Other Confessions

Pills

Every time I go to get pain killers(Advil ibuprofen etc) I think about taking the rest of the bottle right then and there and just wait until the outcome, these thoughts normally happen right b4 i leave for school. I'm tired of living.

One wish...

I sometimes wish I had one week to live.

Mom Says..

I am the mom in my group of friends. I'm happy when they have a new bf/gf, i'm always the thearpist in the group.
But I wish for once, that i could put down the fake smile, Even for a minute. And it would be glorious. I wish i could be called pretty or beautiful, knowing im not. I wish, I could have a realtionship for once.
To all my... (more)

Looking for excuses

Before I came out to my mother about being gay, I hoped and hoped she wouldn't accept me so i would have an excuse to commit suicide... less than a year later, I am still looking for an excuse. :-/

Relapse

That after 2 years of sobriety from cutting, I have relapsed. Things are getting too rough, getting unbarrable. I used to cut on my wrist, about a 2 inch space where a wrist band could cover it. It got so built up with scar tissue that I had to wrap a string around my forearm to cut off cerculation for the vessels to raise, like a heroin addict... (more)

It's over.

I wonder how long it will take. I though that I had nothing. Now I'm wasting around in this sick body. I wonder what it's like.. Bestfriend. This world is smaller than you think. I'm laying in a bed staring out the window. I'm locked in this body and stuffed into this world. I don't know how I lost you, but as I lay here. I know I will never find... (more)

Where is he

All i want is someone in my life that will take care of me, someone who i can love and who will love me back..is that so much to ask for..i feel like i am never going to find the guy thats right for me..i want to find that one guy that is going to love me for who i am and not judge me on anything...i dont know if i am just to anciouse to find him... (more)

My head hurts

Whenever i get upset or angry with myself i take whatever i can find and repeatedly hit myself over the head with it...i know i shouldn't, but when that feeling of anger flares up there is nothing i can do to stop it...i feel sooooo much better emotionally, but then my head hurts...i dont know what to do...there's no way to stop the anger from... (more)

Pain keeps me here

The only reason I dont commit suicide is I feel like I deserve the pain I get from being alive

Beyond broken

Ok i guess this is just a way for me to vent ive hated everyone on this planet pretty much since i was 12 everything changed that year for me and i learned to trust noone ive had one pointless relationship after another i guess some people said i liked the abuse i had two straight years of ** 12-14... (more)

Who I am

I am transsexual, bulimic, and depressed. I am an alcoholic, a drug addict, and a smoker. I am a sociopath; a suicidal, pathological liar. I've killed a pet, molested my younger sibling, and turned my parents against each other. I steal constantly, I'm racist, self-abusing, and hateful. I just turned eighteen.

Goodbye.

My best friend is cutting off the texting on his phone. He's the only thing keeping me alive. If I can't talk to him, I don't know what I'll do. I guess maybe this is the end. ):

Things change

I feel as though i have changed..i dont feel like i am the same person i use to be. i use to be completly obsessed with what other people thought of me and not i dont care at all. i feel as though people will either like me for who i am or they wont like me at all. i feel as though by my thoughts changing, it has changed the way i talk with my... (more)

Gay love

I actually don't know if I am gay or not. I just know that there is a guy in school tha everytime I see him my heart beats faster. I have been wondering for three years if he feels the same way. Now I'm a senior, but I tto afraid to talk to him but I like him so much. When I first saw him I was going to the bathroom. We kept staring at each other... (more)

Butterflies and lollipops!

I think everyone should make a world where people give each other hugs, and wars are decided in tickle contests!
We need a world of rainbow sprinkles and starlight hugs! Where I can look at you, and you, and yes YOU Mister or Miss Grumpygus or Grumpygusina, and love and hug all day! We could have tea parties under the stars and dance an old... (more)

Im Tall

I am a girl, and a sophomore in high school. I am 6 feet tall. People are always telling me how pretty i am, and that i should get into modeling. They always say how lucky i am to be tall, and how they wish they were. But they dont, and they shouldnt. I hate it. I want a guy to accept my height, and ask me out. I just want to feel wanted. I dont... (more)

Im such a stalker

I dont even know where to put this.... well anyways when I was in middle school, there was this girl I really liked. I asked her out then, but she said a flat out no. I was pretty sad but then I decided I'd give her a doll for halloween. After I bought it, I went to her house and rang her bell. Her bro answers the door and invites me in. wth. Then... (more)

The Crazy Mind of A Teenage Kid

I am a 20 year old , living in the usa, and im loosing all focus with my mind, at night i try to sleep, but images in my head keep racing by, of me crouched over crawling like a demon, and thousands of bodys under me, and im just giggling. If you saw me walking down the sidewalk you would never be able to tell that my mind is at a breaking point... (more)

The past lives on

I've helped about 11 people last year, through emotional, physical, and mental issues. I helped get kids off of extacy, stoped them from huffing, drinking, cutting, and ive prevented an atempted suicide.
I've allways been there for everyone, their own guardian angel, but ive never told them about myself. I was abused by my alcoholic mother when... (more)

My secret

I have a secret that only a couple people know about....my boyfriend knows and my best friend, and of course my family but other than that i cant get up the curage to tell anyone else....im dyslexic...i have had trouble in school all my life and have pushed myself so hard that ive gotten an 80 average. i feel like i have acommplished something... (more)

Just a dream

I grew up around sexual abuse. I've been abused myself, friends have been molested by their father, other friends by their friends fathers, Kids by older kids ect.
I dream vividly almost every night or at the least 4-5 out of 7 days a week.. Once in a great while I'll mistake parts of my dreams for reality and question whether or not it's... (more)

Crazy spot to be in

The possibility of me having another child out there, In fact it doesn't scare me one bit , because the wonderful person that would be carrying it is my long time best friend , the only person i trust and pretty much the only person that i could ever love. I easily admit that i really don't have feelings but how i feel around her just isn't a... (more)

I'm here to help!

You're beautiful in every single way. Don't forget that. <3 Need help/advice? http://www.formspring.me/elgee77 Just do it!

I am so **.

I have this friend that I hadn't seen since high school. We finally hung out one day. She was dating the same guy she dated in high school again. We went to the movies, but had time before the show. We were sitting in the parking lot, thinking of ways to waste time before the movie, and she jokingly suggested we park in the far corner of the lot... (more)

A little known fact

Abortion is not murder.

Gay (In)activism

I am a 23-year-old gay female, and have spent weeks mourning the recent wave of suicide amongst LGBT students as a result of bullying, Congress's decision not to overturn Don't Ask, Don't Tell, and as always, the gay marriage issue.
I began writing in to my local paper what I perceived to be a very powerfully written editorial, but when I... (more)

Im turning into another person

Im a horrible person i feel alot lyka ** dat anyone kan kiss i hav a frnd antony nd i knew dat we were both high nd kissed him evn though i knew he had a gf omg nd da nxt day he told her nd omg i felt so horrible cus i didint know dat his realashinship was so intimate they had hAd (more)

Lifes hard

So much stress it can almost push you to the edge..school work , projects, relationship, family....i dont know what to do anymore theres just so much that i have on my plate i dont know what i will ever do when i am out on my own...i cant wait to get out of my house and start a life on my own to see how i will make out but im so scared that i wont... (more)

My life

I tried to commit suicide when i was 15 i went to a rehab clinic after for 7 months. I finally started school again and befriended a football player who has a crush on the only person who stuck with me though the suicide thing and my best friend. And when he told me he liked her, i invited to my house to study and we did it not (more)

Wish this would stop!!!

Every day I think about having a baby. We're not in a good way for that to happen now but I can't help it. I'm not doing anything to make myself get pregnant, I take BC and don't have ** when I should be ovulating. I'm a great mother and wife. I'm responsible and want my children to have a good life, and... (more)

Miserable life

What do you do when you don't want to live but you don't want to die either? I've been unhappy most of my life. I've tried to kill myself twice. I think about killing myself almost everyday. I hate myself and my life so much, but I'm stuck because I know I'll never be able to bite the bullet and just end my life because if I did, it would destroy... (more)

On dying...

I am sick of people hating me because I am beautiful.
I am tired of people treating me like ** because I am a nice person.
I have had enough of being poor because I am honest, because I don't have that cut-throat business edge.
I would kill myself but I am trying to teach two castaway struggling... (more)

It Haunts My DREAMS

A few years ago, I confessed to my family of being suicidal. I was brought to psychiatrists who I did not want to see, and hospitals that I did not want to go to. After this long ordeal of events, my mother thought me 'cured' and left it at that. Now, about 2 years later, as life is growing harder each day, I realize that things are worse that... (more)

You killed me a little inside

Yesterday i called my best friend beautiful on MSN.Her reaction wasnt as i planned.She asked "What" so i explained "You.Are.Beautiful :)" Since i thought maybe it was a shock and she didnt get i just complimented her...Her reply was "But why...?" I was slightly confused by this. I once again explained to her "Oh because your beautiful on the... (more)

This is how I know I'm insane.

I'm afraid my boyfriend got me pregnant. I have punched myself in the abdomen several times, jabbed the handle of my dagger into my abdomen, and have actually inserted a pen into my ** and up my cervix to make sure. I'm on my period, but it doesn't seem as heavy as it should be. Oddly, it's very... (more)

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