Health Confessions

Tired of being fat.

Sometimes I wish I had the willpower to be anorexic. I'm 17, 5'3", and 165 pounds. I don't think it would hurt for me to stop eating. Who knows? It might actually do me some good.

I am a 40 yr old woman with 2 great kids and a loving boyfriend. I have friends who love me. I have a roof over my head and clothes to wear.
I also have Lupus, arthritis, depression, anxiety, and degenerative disc disease. I am in constant, unrelenting pain 24/7. I'm so tired of it. I am in pain management, and the doc has given me so many... (more)

Anti-Depressants

I've wanted to ask about anti-depressants for years, but I know I never will. Mostly because I'm scared of how others will see me, but also because I know my parents will think I'm just trying to get attention.

My **

My ** of left breast is inverted. it really bothers me because my boyfriend and i are about have ** time and how if he finds out that i have a weird **. i cant sleep thinking whats going to happen. i... (more)

People Keep Asking "How did you lose all that weight"

People keep asking me how I lost so much weight. I tell them that it's just diet and exercise. They keep asking me for advise. What am I supposed to tell them? "I didn't eat for months. And when I did, I threw it up."? I don't want anyone to end up as a failure.. like me.

Out of control

I just ate a family size chips, a large piece of battered fish, two potato cakes, two cinnamon donuts, two jam donuts, a mini tiramisu, a hot buttered roll, two packets of instant noodles with cheese, and two bars of chocolate.
I'll vomit it all up again in a couple of minutes once I've drank enough water. My stomach is grotesquely distended... (more)

It wasn't cancer, but I wish it was

Sometimes I wish I had cancer or heart disease instead of depression. Then maybe people would stop yelling at me for being unable to finish my senior year before I was 17 and stop telling me that I'm selfish or seeking attention. Or maybe not blame me if I suddenly just can't wake up one morning because my body has just had enough...

Psychology.

I've been interested in psychology ever since the age of 7 and I read about it every day for hours on end. I'm 16 now and I've helped people for years. I've stopped 4 people from committing suicide and turned their life around, i've stopped 6 addicted cutters, stopped a countless amount doing drugs and smoking for support and much more.
I'm... (more)

Alcohol problem

I have a drinking problem. I tell people I don't and when they bring it up they get mad. I have a stomach ulcer from drinking, but I can't stop. I feel like I need help but I dont want help because I know that means I'll eventually have to stop drinking. drinking is the only thing that makes me happy or motivates me anymore.

Goodbye

I'm dying. The doctor said I will lose every single function I have until my heart stops. I asked my best friend to end it for me before I become a vegetable and people have to change my diaper. He said yes. I am only 24. God **.

Weight

I lie to my friends on how physically fit I am. I want to join the military but I can barely walk up the stairs without breaking a sweat. I'm ashamed I can't measure up what's expected out of me. I'm short and chubby and I'm scared it's going to be like this forever.

I think I'm truly insane.

I'm 12. I've wanted to be dead since I was 7. I know I'm too young to have any serious life decisions, but it always seems like the world would be better without me.
There's nothing I should be complaining about with my life. My parents are together, we live in a rich area and my school life is better than I would've ever imagined. But that's why... (more)

I hear everything wrong

My doctor "diagnosed" me with EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified), I haven't told my family about this.
Whenever I'm over 116lbs and my mum tells me "I look really healthy" I hear, "you're too fat".
Whenever I'm under 112lbs and my mum tells me "you're too thin", I still hear, "you're not working hard enough"
My mum recently... (more)

My confession?

I have a whole bag full of binge food sitting in my closet and I absolutely cant wait to get to it and throw it up<3 God I love being a bulimic!

Feelind To cry all the time

I feel depressed and feeling to cry all the time without any reason. What to do?

I wish......

I wish I was anorexic. People wouldcare about me again.

I want my anorexia back

I just finished 2 months of treatment for my anorexia, where I was on a feeding tube for the most part but insurance kicked me out before I was medically stable. While at the last stretch of treatment, my fiancee left me for someone he met at alcoholics anonymous and when I got home, I had to move back in with my parents and I now live in their... (more)

Self damage

I pick my skin. i pick my skin on my face, and my legs. i have depression and an anxiety disorder, and i am so ashamed. i'm a 16 year old girl. i don't know why i do it, it's just, i feel like i have to constantly punish myself- like i deserve the pain I put myself through every night before I brush my teeth. it's like a poison. i have tried so... (more)

New diet

I hate being called ugly. His new ** told me the reason he dumped me was because I'm fat and ugly. Tomorrow will be my forth day of not eating anything so hopefully I can reach my goal weight of 180 and not be turned down by guys anymore. I've had it with being fat.

Not again...

Nine times, c'mon. I'm bi-polar. My medicine makes my brain function better... but it makes my body horrible to live in. For example: I have ** 9 times today... and its only 1:00pm. I bet normal people don't ** 9 times in a week. I can't remember... (more)

Cuts..

One of my best friends cuts a lot and I told a teacher, who told a counselor, and now her mother knows and she is going to a therapist. She absolutely hates me now... What do I do to relieve some of my stress about all of this? And what do I do to help her?

I wish I could tell them

My parents know that I used to be a self harmer, they know that I was diagnosed depressed when I was 14, they kind of know about my eating disorder.
But they think that was in the past. They think I've gotten better. They think I'm happy.
Five years have passed since they first found out about all that stuff, but they have no idea that it's... (more)

I want to break my leg

I don't know why, but for some reason I want to break my leg. I've never had a broken leg before. I think it's because people will feel sorry for me and pay me more attention. And because I'll be able to get out of class earlier. I plan on purposely breaking my leg. And that's not the only thing. I also want to be sick and I want to fake faint. I... (more)

I hurt myself.

I have been cutting myself for years, i have never told anyone in my life, until now. I've been bottled up inside for as long as I can remember. I want to stop, but I can't stop. I can't even count how many cuts are on my legs.
I forget why I even do it..but it makes me cope. I'm a girl, and I'm seventeen. I've been doing this since 6th grade... (more)

I have Cancer

Just a 15 year old highschool student...I've known I have Choroidal Metastasis for just over a month now. Only my family and a few friends know. I'm scheduled for surgery on July 5 2012. I'm scared to death about the complications because the tumor is behind my right eye. They say there is a possibility they may have to remove the eye completely... (more)

Addiction and disappointment

So my family recently discovered I have some destructive habits such as bulimia and wrist cutting. These behaviors were my coping skills an did even say became an addiction. They've been supervising meant home a lot so I've resorted to drinking alcohol and smoking pot at school. I have a friend who does everything I do and she's forming some bad... (more)

Borderline.

Last week I was finally diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Which means a variety of things. The main part is that I feel emotions much more intensely than most people, often causing me to get upset over virtually nothing, or cry and get emotional when there's no reason to. Another part of it is feeling worthless, or having suicidal... (more)

Thoughts

I think about killing myself nearly every day. I'm not going to, because I know it would hurt people I care about and I know that there must be a way to get through my life without feeling this bad, I just have to find it. But I can't seem to make the thoughts stop, and that scares me. Things have been hard lately. I got laid off from a very... (more)

Re-admission

I failed at my suicide attempt, I spent I month, three weeks, eleven hours in a mental hospital. Were I was poked and prodeded with needleseds and injections, where they took the rest of my living body away and made it theirs. I didn't want the woods to heal, I didn't want the posin to seep out of me. I wanted to die, I wanted to continue dying. I... (more)

I'm not a real therapist

The diploma on my office wall is a fake. I made it in Photoshop. I hired the girl at the front desk 2-weeks ago and one day she will come to work and find the office empty - REALLY empty. I'll load a rental trailer some Sunday and throw all the furniture in it and be gone to another state and another scam.
I'm not a therapist. I only went to... (more)

Sober time lie.

I volunteer my time at a online addiction recovery forum as a 'greeter' for the organization that runs the site. I have constantly relapsed and lie about my clean/sober time.

Why should I feel bad?

I love my body, but pretend I don't because you're overweight and I don't want you to feel bad being around me. But I'm not doing that anymore. I am self-conscious about plenty of things in my life, and I feel like I deserve to have this.

Scared

All my life I have hates my body and considered myself fat. I have always been underweight it's just the way I naturally am. My weight has recently turned into an obsession. I've been severly restricting my food intake though I hesitate to call myself anorexic. Today I over ate and was extremely upset with myself for it. I started poking my wrist... (more)

Anorexia

... that I am in fact suffering of an eating disorder. My friends tell me everytime when they see me only wearing undies. My mother always encourages me to eat more. Yet I don't want to change it. I used to be fat when I was younger... and now it feels good to be who I am, though I do know that I'm anorexic because I want to loose more weight and... (more)

I'm in live with a 32 year old

I'm much younger than he is. I'm in live with his blue eyes, tender lips, soft voice. He is my French teacher. I see him for every possible moment. Its not illegal. I'm of age.. We see each other secretly, I know he more than likely just wants me for **. Why do I not care. Why am I okay with that? I'm... (more)

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