Health Confessions

Why is Perfection Unobtainable?

I am a 16 year old girl.
I am a Christain.
I am in all honors classes.
I am a junior taking college algebra.
I only have one B in History of the Americas.
In all my other classes I have an A.
I have Rhuematiod Arthritis.
I have anxiety problems.
Many boys like me.
I do not believe any of them.
I have trust problems.
I was sexually... (more)

I can't shake it.

I think I'm depressed. I hate sounding like I'm that person who feels sad and not good enough for anyone and brings the mood down, but I think I am.
I've lost all my friends, and I have my fiance (I know I love him, he makes me happy) but he can't always save me.
I also am always thinking about drugs. It's constantly on my mind how I want to... (more)

My arm is a mess...

I just cut myself for the first time in six months.

Suicide attempt 2

Attempt #2 a failure again tried slitting my wrists couldn't cut deep enough cuz im a ** i guess i think electricity will work

Just another girl.

It's easier to tell them I have insomnia and an eating disorder than to admit I'm a drug addict at 18.

So proud of myself

I've lost about 30 lbs. and now fit into ** size 4 jeans. I have never felt more attractive or more confident. I feel so proud of myself! :)

In2Deep

I feel bad because for at least a year now I've been "horribly sick". I've cost my family a lot of money. I've gotten a lot of tests done and even had surgery because im so "sick". I "throw up constantly" and am too "sick" too eat. My mother is convinced i have a wheat allergy. Which means more blood tests coming soon. I've been faking being sick... (more)

IDK i guess im weird

I feel like i have bugs crawling all over my skin sometimes. Its annoying. And i look like an idiot when i try to swat them off. Just saying.

Eat.

I can't eat.
Well, technically I can, the whole 'chew chew swallow' thing is easy enough to understand, but that's not exactly the point. See, I know HOW to eat, I just don't WANT to. I understand that without eating, my body will slowly start to eat away at my muscles and organs that keep me running, I just don't really care, if I die; I die... (more)

When is it coming and how will i Know

LADIES ONLY COMMENTS PLEASE !
Ladies , by reading the title I'm assuming you know what im talking about. if you havent figured it out yet, its my period. all of mr friends have theirs and im just wanting to know when its coming ? Let me give you some information about me ...
I am 12 years old and Im almost 13. i am in middle school, and I... (more)

Teeth

I'm not even 30 and I have multiple fake teeth on a removable bridge. AKA dentures. It makes me sad and I feel like a bug. Just low. I know that this is just a middle step to getting nice implants but I just feel low right now.

Check my brain

My mind is leaving me...i dont know if its just me or does every ** one wanna cry.i thought it would help goin to classes,socialogy phychology,but i afriad its far worse then that.i must self -help this!!!!

I'm dying.

Literally.
I've had a serious health condition since birth, and it's getting worse. I'm a teenage girl. No one knows how bad it really is, because on the outside I am a physically attractive, healthy-looking girl. They have no idea how severe it is, and I don't even let on to my friends.
I am so sick. It's not getting better anymore.
I... (more)

Diagnosed

I'm a schizophrenic

I have bipolar II disorder, and...

Before I went on medications, I was a lot more fun, clever, and creative. I knew exactly how to make my friends laugh, and did it all the time. Now I sometimes fear that I bore them.
I have to admit that I am a happier person in general than I was before the medications and therapy (there was some personal trauma as well).
But I feel so much... (more)

Am I weak?

I feel really weak for being depressed. I am not clinically diagnosed because its really embarrassing to admit. There is obviously something wrong with me. I am no doctor but I never knew what these feelings were for years. I'm seventeen now and I decided to do some research and I have all the symptoms of depression, anxiety and ocd. Ugh, I just... (more)

Most embarrassing thing ever

For the past 4 years i have been wetting myself whenever i cough sneeze laugh or sometimes just spontaneously. i am too humiliated too get to close to girl lest they find out and think i am disgusting and tell everyone. i am also too humiliated & ashamed to tell my parents or a doctor

I'm thinking about leaving

I just called the Suicide Hotline. It's my third week of college. I'm severely depressed. I don't know how much longer I can do this.

I want to kill myself

I hate myself so much , i wish id never been born , thee is not one thing i like about myself i am horribly fat and i feel like ill die alone with 2346789876432 cats i want too start over i want to relive and make no mistakes , living is so hard. i just want it to be over ,i just want to be loved ,i just want a PURPOSE.

Identity Theft

Everytime i look in the mirror i want to cry. I will be going about fine and then i will catch a glimpse of myself and just sink so low i think ill never be able to get out. I am only 20 and weigh 360lbs. And i cannot stop eating. i eat until im full and then get bored and eat again. i get so full i have to vomit. It like i dont even realize how... (more)

I have stopped driving because

When ever i am behind the wheel i cant help but think what if i go straight into the divider instead of turning. what if i go off the bridge instead of on. I am always hoping i will have the courage to go straight into oncoming traffic, but so far have not. Its like everything else just fades out while i think and then all of a sudden im past the... (more)

I hate my life (teenage girl perspective).

Today, on September the 4th, was one of my very, very bad days. I woke up, went downstairs, had a bowl of cereal and two waffles. Went shopping with my sister. Got 4 pieces of clothing, all too small or unfitting. We got home, my sister shows off her 12 pieces of clothing, all of which fit her tight body, big booty and (more)

I feel empty

I feel empty.

Wellness...

This confession is embarrassing, strange and I'm mostly venting about my Revenge on how I'm going to get back at those people that like to see me in the dirt.
Now that I'm losing weight, people around me hate it, and I guess I love it for the first time.
A few years ago, I lost more than 100 pounds, but it really affected me (emotionally)... (more)

I want a nose job.

Nobody has ever said anything bad about my nose. People have never said that it's too big, crooked etc. NEVER. I don't know why lately I've been thinking of getting a nose job. Since graduating high school last year I've battled with depression, gotten a tattoo, fell back into my bulimia and also I haven't gone on a date with a guy in a year. My... (more)

I still throw up.

My whole body is **. I've had bulimia for a few years and before that I was teeter on anorexia. I still throw up. I love food but I hate it. It's a love/hate thing. I admire the anorexic models in Vogue and Marie Claire magazine. I'm 5'2 so I should be skinny. I hate my height I want to be super tall... (more)

Imagination run wild

I have a problem with lying. I make up stories about things that I imagine could happen with me and friends. Sometimes they are little things and other times they can strech on over several months.
It scares me the most though because I have found myself believing some of the stories and hurting myself emotionally. I recently told lies that... (more)

I have a problem

When i was 10 i wieghed 200 lbs. i was not happy at all. i decided to get healthy..i joined sports,started running everyday,and ate healthy. i finaly got down to 160 and 5'3 at the age of 12. i was still not happy..but qorking out and eating healthy wasnt working anymore. one day i got really sick and kept throwing up. the next day i weighed... (more)

Nightmares

Since I was a little kid, from my very first memories, I've ALWAYS had nightmares, consistently, like, 4 or 5 nights a week. I'm 20 now, and this is still continuing. I find it happens less when I sleep with my boyfriend, and if it does happen then, at least I'm comforted when I wake up.
The nightmares themselves are disturbing. Most of... (more)

Can't Sleep

For the past two months I have been taking sleeping pills because I just liked the deep sleep that I had but I ran out and I have no money to get any because I am a stupid broke woman and now I REALLY can't sleep. I was laying in the bed looking at the ceiling and I just had to get online and let people know how pathetic I am. My husband is out... (more)

My Fat My Problem

I wish I could vomit and lose weight. The thought alone makes me sick so until I can develop a nerve and get the right eating disorder I will continue to weigh 177. I also wish I made enough money so that I could ** the fat out of me! I mean come on, I don't eat a lot I just have a slow metabolism!... (more)

Heavy

I'm 17 years old and I'm overweight. I'm 5'5" and I weight 203 pounds. I feel so ugly and disgusted right now. I dont know what to do. In a way I'm happy with my life. I have a lot of good friends, a good athletic boyfriend that loves me this way, I get good grades and its going to be my senior year of high school. Sometimes I dont feel like its a... (more)

Sick.

There are two kinds of days living with my eating disorder. There are the days that I throw up blood or get too nervous to purge. The days where I just starve myself, but I keep the food that I DO eat down. I'm scared and I can't stop thinking about how close I might be to dying.
Then there are the days where I just dont care. Im free from fear... (more)

I Wish...

I always cut myself. I don't know why I do it. I'll do it when I'm not even in a bad mood or anything so I know that's just strange. I haven't done it in a few days but I can't get the thought of it out of my head. About 80% of my day is spent thinking about cutting no matter what I'm doing. I wish I could tell someone without them thinking I'm... (more)

Bullimia

I have only just realised how serious my bullimia is. It feels like I can't control it, when im not sick I cut myself. I don't want to tell anyone but I just want to be normal again.

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