Health Confessions

Addiction.

Everyone thinks i'm done with the pills but the truth is i never will be. the only way i will quit is when i'm in 6 feet under.

I might have an STD.....or HIV

I'm a virgin but at the end of my second semester in college, I gave Oral ** to a guy that lead me on. Days later, he cheated on me. That was the first time I did anything sexual in my life. 7 weeks later, I had a sore throat, fever, swollen tonsils with white stuff on them. The doctors said it was Mono... (more)

Asymmetrical **

One of my ** is two cup sizes smaller than the other. The left is a small A and the right is a large C. This makes me extremely self conscious and sadly my doctor said I am just unfortunate and it happens some times. Every guy who has seen them says they were fine with it but it did weird them out at... (more)

Over a year ago

I was run over by a car. Until this day the sound of speeding cars scare me. I still get nervous crossing the street. All this I try not to show it to anyone because I don't want them worrying. Until this day they don't understand how Traumatized I am and how it changed not only the task of crossing the street for me but other aspects of my life... (more)

Secretly fading

I have Bulimia, but I have had it for a while... It is not as near as bad as it was. Although, I keep loosing weight, and I do not know why because I eat enough and I keep it down.
My parents weigh me every day. My parents went on vacation for a week and left me with my grandmother, i lost about ten pound, and now my life is (more)

Delicious!

I love the taste of ice cream when I throw it up. (I'm bulimic.) It's like I get to taste it twice!

Pathetic.

I'm bulimic and I'm a guy. I feel like a chick when I make myself puke but I can't stop because I don't want to go over 110 pounds. I used to be on a ridiculous diet where I was barely eating anything, then I started eating a bunch of junk and felt guilty. Thus I started making myself puke. I can't tell my doctor because I'm afraid he's call me a... (more)

I starve myself..

I weigh 106. I'm a 15 year old girl. 5"4'. I honestly HATE my weight... so so much. I feel so guilty after I eat or drink anything except water. I do eat, sometimes, but I'm constantly checking the calories and stuff... I got up to 110 lbs two weeks ago, and cried and ugh. I want to be 90 lbs like I was last year. It hurts... NOBODY knows what i'm... (more)

I'm a coward because I love drugs.

I confess that I'm weak. I'm weak and pathetic because instead of dealing with my problems, I take drugs to make myself feel happy and hide everything. My life is **, but instead of fixing it I pop pills and drink to escape. It's cowardly because it's the easier way out. I'm too afraid to try in life... (more)

My wife has grown fat and I love it

My chubby wife has grown into quite a large woman in the last 10 years, well into the 300 lb range and I LOVE IT.
I never knew I liked fat women until I met her and as she grew fatter and fatter ** got better and better. now the simple sight of her naked huge body turns me on so much it drives me... (more)

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Almost dead

I'm sure there will be trolls who will jump all over this, but after eight months of being in the process of dying, I wish this ** would just end. I am not suicidal, I am not a drama queen. I have been in excruciating, unrelenting pain for months. I can't endure it. But I can't put my family... (more)

Scared

I am scared to die. So much so, I'm afraid it could drive me insane.

Confused

Now that I'm not depressed, i'm more lost than ever. Grappling with angst seemed to give me a purpose for lack of a better phrase. Now that I'm off medication and have been released from psychiatric outpatient care, I don't have anything to concentrate on.

You think...

You are the only thing i am holding onto in this world. it feels like no one cares anymore not family or friends you gave me the hope to push forward just a little longer. without you i am as good as dead. And im sure thats exactly what will happen

No one will ever understand. That's why it's here.

I'm in my late teens with a stuttering problem, and up till now I never dared to admit how much the problem is affecting me, especially emotionally.
Sometimes, I wish I could just lock myself up in my room and not talk to anyone. I die a little inside whenever I stutter on words and people look at me funny wondering what's wrong with me. I... (more)

I dunno really.

I’m nineteen; starting University in a matter of weeks. Life has been pure strange. At six I was diagnosed with A.D.D(Attention Deficit Disorder) and with Aspergers Syndrome(on the spectrum of autism), this has affected each and every aspect of my life. From such an age I have had to deal with presenting myself as ‘normal’ to the world. That has... (more)

WHY DO I HATE LIFE?

I hate my life. I just can't live like this anymore, I know I'm a lot more fortunate than many other people around the world. My parents have good careers I live in a nice house and I have a good education and a little brother. I just cant find the time to enjoy myself anymore, I can't find the time to do anything. I get sidetracked so easily its... (more)

It's always been like this.

For as long as I can remember, I've been going to doctor appointments because of a hormone imbalance. I've never produced enough hormone, so I'm shorter, weaker, and more depressed than the other guys. My voice has always been higher, something I've been teased about in school. I had to take artificial hormones to start puberty. The patches I was... (more)

I'm scared....

Mom, I didn't fall asleep while you weren't home. I collapsed onto the floor and was unconcious until after you came home. I just didn't tell you, because I don't want you to know..... Mom, I'm bulimic.... and i'm really scared

Scared to death

I'm so terrified of becoming a bulimic again, sometimes to the pipnt where I shake and cry.... I'm only 15. I should never have let it become a part of my life. Now it constantly looms over me. I'm afraid that i'll start my old habbit, no one ever knew, afterall. I'm too young to have to deal with this. I'm so so scared...

It is legal to be single

It is legal to be single, and bitter to those who wants and force the single to marry them. so stop and free the single like me, you are getting worst suitor. you should find someone else who's ready to mingle with you since you like being married. And I am staying single,at least I let you know early, so don't blame me later. This is a clear... (more)

One more pill to make the world go round

I wish sometimes that I was attacked, beaten, or anything so I could point out why I have depression, afraid to be alone or even with people I don't know, and a panic disorder... then I wouldn't feel so insane

Save jamie.

I wish i could've done something to help this puppy, who was not even a couple hours old when it was abandoned. i sat up all night long trying to get it to eat. i thoguht there was going to be a chance that it would survive, only to wake up at 9am, to my mom telling me that it's having problems eating. i did some reasearch online, and ran back to... (more)

Eating Disorder

I have an eating disorder now. Even though I eat. I barely eat. I work out all the time. It's a bummer, but at least I confused to the world.

suicide

i have tried to kill myself approximately 7 or more times... i think i might be immortal.i even lived through a car accident that i should have died in last year. the only bones i have ever broken are my pelvis and my knuckles. i plan to try once more if i dont die this time i will probably stop trying....i think

i wet myself on a bus

i had a couple of drinks with the girls from work when i had to get home. the bus tiolets were out of order and i was desperate to go i held on for ages when my bus came. i sat at the back and when we moved i just wet myself it lasted ages. i was dripping wet knickers ans jeans. the seat and floor was swimming , so as i got off the bus i told the... (more)

Dunno

I'm slowly drinking myself to death and I don't care any more. I'm too gutless just to end it. I have nothing to live for.

i hit my bf ; part 1

i have a bf of 5yrs. i hit him. he hasnt cheated on me that i know of. but i did yrs ago. im 19f hes 21. i cheated bc he didnt give me enough attention. We wanted to be together anyway so we fixed it. my dad always cheated on my mom. she always hit him for it everytime. i started believing it was ok as if he deserved it. then i started noticing... (more)

i hit my bf ; part 2

i have been trying for the past yr to stop. i feel like i am this way bc of my mom &the enviorment i was raised in. my sis hasnt had a longterm bf. i wonder if she did would she too hit him? Could it be that im too comfortable w.my bf &thats y i hit him? i never had too many friends in hs so i was so glad to graduate ¬ feel so alone at school... (more)

i hit my bf ; part 3

Itll be as if she failed in being a mother &she wont have that. i know whether its comfort or my childhood, i know im messed up. i wanna, need to fix myself. for me my bf & my what if i have kids? i dont want them to be messed up as well. ugh i like my mom. i have love for her but our bond isnt like other mother daughter bonds. my sis doesnt... (more)

Side effects

I have depression and anxiety. I hate taking my meds because I feel like a whole different person. I lose every bit of humor and personality that I posess normally. Sometimes I wonder if I should just stop taking them all together so I can be the real me again.

Vanity Kills

I regularly make myself vomit by shoving a toothbrush down my throat. I am occasionally overdose on laxatives. I think about food and how I don't like my body constantly.
I am not anorexic.
Or thin.
I'm overweight. So no one suspects.
Binge eater.
I look like a fat man and not a women.
6FT 1"
UK Size 20
One A (more)

I thinkni have axinty and depression.

I get to the point a can't breathe when I get left alnone or when I am in a bad situation or when someone says we need to talk. It makes me want to cry!! I can't breathe can't think and I just don't know. When someone says or does something it makes me feel stupid. I have a horrible habbit of walking into things and my sister calls me a "fucken... (more)

I am scared of STDs

I have been more promiscuous than I can believe. It scares me - hepatitis, AIDS, HPV - all of it. I sometimes can't control myself and live in constant fear that I will give something to my wife. Why am I so broken? I got tested 3 years ago and was clean. But I have played since then and can't get the courage to get screened again. I hate... (more)

alcohol

everything is ** up and i feel like drinking. i am alone and i need something to dull my senses, to change my mind's functioning, to alter my reality. i've said before that i'd do heroin if i could and i've also said that i would never be an alcoholic. i don't think i'm anywhere close to that, but... (more)

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