Venting Confessions

One step forward, two steps back...

Today I found a package of unopened razor blade, and I was sorely tempted to take one. I didn't, though, and I was so proud of my self. Taking baby steps like that is big progress when you're trying to stop cutting. I still had the thought, but did not act on it.... Until later this evening, when I locked myself in the bathroom and (this will... (more)

Raising a grown man

I literally hate my step son. I am 29 and my wife is 33
She lost custody of her son when he was like 5 and out of the blue
The state gives him back when he is 17 WTF. I can stand this attitude anf
Sense of entitlement like the world/us owe him everything he wants becausr he had a tough childhood join the club
His Lazy (more)

It's so tough being a stepdad

I'm having a difficult time right now. I'm with the most wonderful woman in the world, who happens to have 2 boys (6 and 11) who drive me nuts. We have 50/50 custody, so they live here every other week. The 11 year old is most likely slightly Asperger's and the 6 year old is just a piece of work. He lies, is needy, bossy, moody, rebellious... (more)

Moving

I hate my life. I tell everyone I love it, and at times I do, but I have sacrificed too much for my husband. I moved to a different country to be with him, and now I never see my family, with whom I am very close. I see his family all the time, and I HATE THEM. I would like to burn down his mother's house. I don't know if i can go on like this.

I wish

I wish I could disappear for two days and be found wandering naked in the middle of the road.

Just need to let it out.

I'm in love with this girl (girl a).
She is in love with me.
We just don't work well together.
I had ** with another girl (girl b) twice after girl a made it clear that nothing was ever going to become of our feelings.
i couldnt stop thinking about girl a the whole time.
girl b knows everything... (more)

Why does everyone treat me like a parasite?

I just feel sometimes that no one really likes me, that I just ** everyone off. I'm ** at making friends. Everyone gets sick of me eventually, it's just some people stick around longer. No one really compliments me, i just listen as my family gush over... (more)

The boy from band class...

Dawson, you are an adorable 7th grader and i absolutly love you...but i mean the type of love where you care alot and can't get over the person. Generaly i would like you enough to ask you out, but theres a problem, i cant. The only way i can do that is to be your friend...i say hi to you anytime i can... And when you try not to smile and end up... (more)

I hate them

I hate homosexuals and i hate how acceptable they have become
I hate green people. Those California types with their priuses organic food and earth **
I hate blacks that act black. i do not have a problem with those that act human. but the hiphop types are repulsive.
I hate self loathing... (more)

Another Suicidal Thoughts Post

I have spent a great portion of my life working up the nerve to slit my throat. Every new friend I make is another person burdening themselves over my passing.

No one sees

I cut myself. I have since I was eleven years old. I have never gone to extensive lengths to hide the scars or the fresh cuts, but no one seems to notice that I have angry red lines across my wrists.
No one notices that I have stopped eating either. Or that when I do have to eat, I go to the bathroom right after and throw up.
I know I sound... (more)

Trapped

Man you've really ** up now. What the ** are you going to do? What's going to become of you? How could things have gone this bad? Why can't I be normal? I'm ** trapped in my apartment. I feel like a... (more)

I hate old people

For some unknown reason I hold a terrible grudge against old people. Whenever I walk down the street and I see an elderly gentleman, or woman, I get this overwhelming urge to just smash them in the face for no reason. Their wrinkly skin makes my blood boil, and they are just really rubbish in general and get in people's way. I'm really worried... (more)

Why wont anyone just realize i'm not okay

Lets start with I'm only 15
I would like to say I'm a bit intoxicated... lolz...
I'm just so done...
I've been thinking about suicide and not being here because my thoughts are just so depressing since i was 9.
when i was young i was labeled as having autism
but if you see me now i really am not... and somehow grew out of it.
I was weird as... (more)

My sister will be the death of me!

Basically I'm a teenage girl who comes from a very well off family. For the past YEAR I've suffered from... Well... Parasites. I know everyone gets them, but it's disgusting and no matter how hygienic I am, or how many tablets I take - the problem doesn't go for more than a month. This is affecting my mood and my sleep and my schoolwork on the... (more)

Confused

Im so mad and i dont know why. . . i dont know why but when i see this guy i get so mad. his presence just ** me off, i dont know why. today i totally told him off (im a freshmen and he is a sophomore) and it seems like i hurt him, or he just got really annoyed .___. but i feel so horrible, i didnt... (more)

If only

My childhood was full of pain, torment and loneliness. All I had was my family and even they were total strangers to me. My mother is extreme overly everything- protective, micro managing, rude, and sometimes downright abusive of her title as my so called 'mother'. The only thing that has kept me going is my boyfriend, who is my reason for living... (more)

Expat Living in China

I have read some of the comments regarding the chinese, some of which wouled appear to be true at first sight. But until you understand them there country there way of life you cant comment. you are all just wankers that have not got a clue!!! No wonder other counties get the impression that the English are trouble. Try to grow up abit wankers

I don't know what to do

I don't know what to do,I am homeless and pregnant. I don't have anyone who will help give me a hand up. I feel like a useless worthless spec on the face of this earth I would rather just die right now and I am really thinking about it I have already looked up several ways to do it and I think I am going to.

I play MMORPG's because real life **.

Real life just **. At least in my world, everyone greets me with a "Welcome home" and "Welcome back". Out in the real world, its just, "hey you". I don't feel any vibe or emotion from what the real world people give me. I just want to be happy, but, I know it won't last forever. I don't feel well... (more)

I don't even know why I'm your friend anymore...

I made one racist comment about a religion you frankly don't even belong to/care about, and you flip your lid, comparing me to Hitler or Islamic Terrorists. Frankly, The fact you condoned me in this way shows your JUST as narrow minded as I am, but at least I can admit it. Sure, I don't like Muslims. Should we glass the middle east like I said?... (more)

I have to get this out...

I feel powerless and weak. I feel dependant on my mother, and yet I behave so ungratefully. I’m a terrible daughter. I’m a terrible friend. I think horribly cruel thoughts about the people that act with nothing but kindness towards me. I feel like people don’t like me, even when they claim that they love me. It doesn’t matter what anyone says. I... (more)

Not alone, but Lonely

I just need to get this off of my chest so I can go to sleep tonight without feeling the need to cry over myself like I so often do.
I am not alone in this world...but I certainly feel lonely. I have two parents who try to contact me at least once a week to make sure I'm doing okay. I have, over the years, finally made some friends that I hope to... (more)

I just ** hate everything

I feel like running away. Away to where i can be free. free to be myself and away from the tight grip of my life. I'm sick of school, i'm sick of seeing people, i'm sick of putting on the same uniform every morning to go see the people that i see every ** day. I'm sick of my family, i'm sick of... (more)

I know they mean well, but...

Just when i thought people were done nagging me, they start up again. I’m a 37 year old man, never been married nor had children. When I had just graduated college, it was as if suddenly all my parents’ friends wanted me to date their daughters. I liked them and going on dates, but never really clicked with any of them. After I became really busy... (more)

People

Why is it that so many people are so ** stupid or ignorant?

You are unworthy

I really think you are just a waste of space. Michael takes such good care of you. You were jobless and homeless and he took you in. You paid no rent, nothing for food, no bills. So you slept around on him and still do. Did you really think that no one knew about it? Everyone does except for him. Enough trying to convince me that is not what is... (more)

Lesbihonest

I like guys. But I like girls too. I don't really know what I am and frankly I don't really care. Girls are just...ugh so ** beautiful

Rambles

“Waiting for the end to come, wishing I had strength to stand. This is not what I had planned. It’s out of my control.” I’m only 20. Have been for the past month. It feels like I’ve hit the hardest part of my life. I moved in with a friend from high school, he annoys me with his ** life lies and... (more)

Guilty and angry

I feel really angry at mum
and then i feel guilty about being angry
i feel like she is trying to make me unhappy
she loves it that im paying attention to her now
on the phone she just talks and talks about nothing. its not a conversation.
i dont want to tell her anything that is happening in my life.
epecially now, not after the over... (more)

I ** Up

The one experience I wish I hadn’t would be the one involving a girl I met in my sophomore year of high school. During my lunch period, I met up with a friend I hung out with in my freshmen year. She happened to be there with him on the first day. They basically became my lunch-time friends.
So a few weeks passed, we had a few zainy conversations... (more)

I look happy most of the time to hide my rage

I've pretty much always gotten in trouble for being upset whenever I've been unhappy/disappointed/etc around my family so I learned to hide my emotions, especially the anger. I've still lost my cool sometimes but for the most part, I have to keep it inside. But I'm so full of anger and bitterness and resentment from all my life that it's getting... (more)

The only reason I haven't committed suicide

Is because I can't get my hands on a gun. That's the only way I would do it.

This is dumb.

This is a really dumb confession, and some of you may think I'm shallow, but the truth is that I want more than anything to be popular. Have a lot of friends, go on dates, have an actual social life, and that kind of thing. I'm in a new school now, so maybe I can make my dream a reality.

Myself

Im 13. I dont look 13, dont sound 13, dont feel 13. i feel 15, i feel mature and like i can do anything. the problem? i cant. i cant even fight with my mom over something as stupid as my bedroom. i want to live my live free and full of memories with no regrets. My parents always tell me to do what i want but as soon as its something they ask, it... (more)

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