Health Confessions

Anorexia Chose Me..

I Never Chose To Be Anorexic, It Chose Me.

My confession of being anorexic

I am anorexic and proud! People who disagree dont understand. Anorexicity isn't taking over us! Its depression!God made me the way I am, and honestly I am proud of that... I am proud of me being ME! I am not perfect! I never knew this would happen. But honestly I am glad it did! Go ahead and comment negative things. I will keep doing what I love!

I AM.

I AM: . not skinny yet . im anorexic . i only litsen to ana . i honestly dont care what you think . i love being anorexic . i am letting what i love kill me, idgaf . i am me

Someone wanna give me insight?

Yea I know no one on here is a doctor and I have an appointment tomorrow so leave that out.
I am 17 days late for my period but I have been having symptoms (super painful, swollen **, hunger, stomach cramps, blah blah blah). About 2 weeks ago, during **... (more)

Baby boy

I lost my daughter 3 years ago to an unexplained stillbirth. It's still hard to this day. Well I'm pregnant again & I'm having a baby boy. This pregnancy has been even harder. I cry everyday. I try to keep it to myself. I don't want a pity party. I'm plain scared. Honestly I'm glad I'm having a boy. I have had no choice but to be strong & continue... (more)

Broke

I can't even afford insulin :/

I don't take my anti-psychotic meds

I hate my shrink. I've done my research and ALL anti-psychotic meds raise blood sugar which causes weight gain. I am vain and choose thin over sane. It is more harmful mentally to be stigmatized by society and doctors for obesity when I walk 20+ miles a week and diet.

THe blues

I dont know why i feel so sad all the time.... it was soon after I got a good job position. Can you tell me why?

Bipolar sadness

I am a naturally happy person but I swear in a second. A switch flips and i want to kill myself and harm myself. but once i get serious about it the switch turns off and im fine. Its really strange and im embarrassed about.

I act like everything is okay

Nothing is okay. my life is falling apart. i am depressed. suicidal. anorexic. bipolar. i have anxiety. i go home every day crying. wake up every day asking why. why am i still here. and i don't dare tell anyone because i apparently have everything.
everything but happiness.
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How to talk?

I often post my feelings here because I feel like I cant really talk to anybody.
Today Im confessing something I had hoped I never would have to confess. But sadly here I am...
My dad is not well. The problem is he doesnt want to go and see the doctor.
There are several problems I know... or I feel... he suffers from.
First, he was never... (more)

Pregnant and smoking

I'm a 24 year old preggo, and I smoke. Now 3 months preggo but I have decided I enjoy smoking too much to quit. My mother smoked with all three of us and we turned out just fine. I think the anti-smoking hype is over rated, anyway. I have smoked a pack a day since I was 11 and am not about to stop now, just because I'm preggo. I don't think that's... (more)

How do I stop being a dirty sleazeball when I'm drunk?

I like to think I'm a nice guy throughout the week, and for most of a night out, but later on, when I get really drunk, I turn into a sleazy piece of **.
I have a girlfriend and my behaviour's been better over the last 6 months I've been with her, but I'm worried I'm slipping back into bad habits... (more)

Confused

I’ve recently started this habit where I occasionally make myself throw up after eating. It makes me feel better but worse at the same time. I can’t help feeling guilty because my boyfriend has been expressing worry over my eating habits and I constantly lie and tell him I’m eating properly. Same thing with my parents. I feel like I should do... (more)

Screwed

I make myself throw up even though I am already skinnier than most people

i dont know how it happened

ok so i started smoking when i was 11 and for the last 5 yrs i been smoking less than a pack per day. i started because this older guy i like a lot dared me and then he said that i look ** when i smoke. then maybe 1-2 months ago i went to a bar with that same guy with the new fake id he got for me... (more)

My Cutting

After almost two years of treatment I cut myself at least 3 times a week (normally more.) I play it off like I don't remember when my girlfriend asks but I do. There is never anything too deep.
It gives me a rush because I work in mental health and nobody knows. I love that rush and the sting of rubbing alcohol on fresh cuts and the feeling... (more)

No regret,s

I was 14 my first ** experience, I like it an had many more, it might be wrong at that age, but I seem to have my health thank god.

Bullimia.

I'm a bullimic and i hate it so much. Everyday i fight with myself to prevent my binge/purge episodes but lose every day. I'm pathetic and weak and can't even stand up to my self. I just want to be sane and be able to eat without having to eat everything i see and without worrying about my weight. I'm too scared to tell anyone because everyone... (more)

I poisioned myself

All of my life I have harmed myself in all kinds of ways and covered it up by saying I fell, I was sick, I had an accident, I was in a fight or some other dumb reason that I made up. It started when I was about 6 or 7 I really don't remember, it went off and on into my 20's when I had a break down after stabbing myself and saying I was attacked... (more)

Chemical romance

I've been addicted to everything. I will finally quit one drug, but always replace it with another. First, it was cocaine, then shooting cocaine and morphine, then Percocet, Demerol, then I used to open fentanyl patches and eat them. I used exctasy, MDMA, acid and salvia all throughout (but I don't consider those a problem).Then it turned to... (more)

I do self harm and I'm eleven

That I self harm. I know I shouldn't do it, but it makes me feel happier so to speak. I don't know why I do it. Is there anybody out there that knows what I'm going through. I forget to say that I don't want to tell my parents because they'll get scared and I don't want them yt? O worry about me. Please just help me.

My wife got fat

When we got married, my wife was 180 pounds. over 10 years of marriage, she has become a 295 pound beauty. I guess it's all of my good cooking. Early on, she didn't gain that much, but in the last few years she has piled it on as her appetite seems to have increased. Fat ** is the best!

Male infertility is just as devestating as female infertility

So much is written about female infertility and how when a woman can't have a baby its so often devastating to her. Much less is written about male infertility and how much it damages them. I am male and infertile and I suffer from as much shame and embarrassment as an woman who can't have a baby. Society often views women's role as a caregiver... (more)

Love yourself

I'm 19, 225 pounds, and I'm 5'5. Sometimes I feel like such a whale. I hate the way I look sometimes. I wish I could learn to love myself and start doing daily exercise....

I always wanted to be bulimic

Ever since I was ten years old and my mother yelled at me for being overweight, I have always had fantasies about having an eating disorder. I would always try to starve myself as much as I could, but unfortunately, I was unable to cut myself off completely. I was in marching band in high school, so I had to keep up some kind of diet so that I... (more)

I wanna hate food, but i love it

Ive always had problems with eating. ive always felt like i had to eat every secound. Now its like i eat just because. I wish , i hated food. couldn't stand to eat. I exercise, but the eating part is difficult. I want to hate food. I wanna lose weight. im going to replace it with somthing else. My mom says im just greedy, i think its a problem. I... (more)

I Think I Have a Sleeping Disorder?

I'm 15. Ever since I was little I've had a fascination with the study of dreams and sleep. Since I was about 6 or 7, I have had a great ability to stay up all night and most of the next day, only sleeping about 6-8 hours ever two days. I think that this may also be the reason I was so short as a child, (I come from a relatively average height... (more)

Faded scars

It's been over five years and I don't even consider cutting myself anymore but I am proud of the scars on my wrist and I think they look cool and i wish everyone would look at them but not anyone i know

I see things

I am about to lose my mind. I hate it. My parents don't take me seriously and I can't take it anymore.
I've been suffering from horrible, terrifying hallucinations for about 6 years now. I am 17. I'm scared to tell them my most horrifying ones. I tried to commit suicide when I was 13 years old because of it. Then I tried a year later. The last... (more)

Welcome back, Ana....

I got out of treatment in April. It's September now. I've lost over 15 pounds, I can see my bones again, my hair is falling out, I'm not sleeping... I have to face the inevitable... The girl who helps everyone recovery, can't help but relapse... Welcome back, Ana...

I think I'm addicted to harming myself.

Really, believe me, I've tried. I'm 17 and have been struggling on and off with harming myself for nearly 8 years now and I don't know how to stop. I had gone almost a whole year without cutting myself, but after a few traumatic things that occurred recently, I've relapsed. I can honestly say I hate doing it, but I'm afraid to think that I've... (more)

Disgusted with money

I really want to finish college. I was diagnosed with brain cancer in 2011. I'm over $10,000 in medical debt after doing a year of chemotherapy. I still have cancer.
I started having seizures again last week. I can't afford to go the doctor because I'm so broke from trying to pay off the medical bills from when I did have health insurance. I... (more)

Mental Illness Is Hard To Live With

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Help me

That i cant do this anymore. Pretend to be strong. Pretend my life is uner control. I just lost my dad. I am going crazy. I feel like i am stuck in a hole that takes everything happy away. I am lost. Scares of whats to come. I can feel myself get weaker everyday. Eating diorder. Drug addiction. Could i get any worse. I use to be so alive. So... (more)

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